Monday, July 30, 2007
Extreme Makeovers=????????????????????????
Saw on television on 7/29/07, program about extreme makeovers in which there was an African American female with children that all were given a new house with their own rooms each with a different theme. After it went off, my thoughts were, “Well why don’t I try that=for over forty years I have been trying to get employment in this dam city and nothing; so why don’t I apply to have an extreme makeover, I qualify with a house with no furniture, food, stove, refrigerator, barely keep the lights on=thank you Lord; pray about the water=don’t have any money to fix the questionable water leak=????
So went on website www.abettercommunity.com in which they asked for volunteers=would rather be a volunteer=reality says ask for help=so I looked for qualifications to get help with a house and they are as follows:
"Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."
Remember when I wrote on my blog that they were trying to make me homeless=???even though I was part owner in a house, and my family was doing repairs to the house when I was out of it; as soon as I moved back in the house=they stopped doing repair work on the house; then I met the minister who I heard on the radio that gives away food, clothes, shoes, furniture, etc.=in which thank God he did give me some food to tide me over and he did give me work in the church office for a minute=in which I observed him continuously repairing furniture, giving food and clothes away, etc.. It was even promised after the minister saw the house, because he use to have a remodeling company, that he would help me to repair the house and then help me to put furniture in the house.
As I observed him giving furniture away to other people; I asked when he was going to help me=long story short=the answers were excuses not to help me=????even though I knew he was doing the best he could=he and his wife are good people with good hearts=because of gift I knew that they were dealing with the demons and were trying to hear from God=meaning that in order for him to my pastor=he has to know what demons I have overcome=in order to lead me=therefore, after I joined the church, he stayed in spiritual warfare; in which to tell someone what he has experienced, nobody would=correction=there are some people that do understand and know about some of the situations in which God showed me how to overcome.
Which still brings me back to this point; first my income and second the house with no furniture, etc.=as stated by the Exteme Makeover website=
” Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.“
My income=which has been at $2,000.00 per year on average=even with two degrees=can’t make people hire me or stop them from interfering with my trying to make an income on my own=”One lady said that she would get up every day and just pester them=told her that I had did that=applied with Wachovia for over thirteen years=to find out that they had hired an African American female to keep out other African Americans=heard it on the news or some people talking about it=remember saying to myself=well that’s why I got no return phone calls after thirteen years=in fact that is what they still have in the city of Winston-Salem, now they are using Hispanics as well as African Americans=who is going to stop them=in which the real problem comes when people realize what is going on and try to earn money on their on=but when they do they are punished and attacked if they try to earn their own income or if any of their family members try to help them=because for every person that is stopped from making their own money=somebody has to supply them with money from somewhere=if they just utterly refuse to go to any type of social service; then they are forced into other activities in which would be consider to be illegal; prostitution, drugs, etc.,or they have to be gay to earn their money or they are classified as mentally ill=meaning that for the most part in regards to my earning an adequate income, etc. the circumstances ARE beyond my control; not God’s but mine=I do not have the resources to combat an established century old system of blocking African Americans out of the economic mainstream for no other evident reason than that they love their own people.
For every time a family member helps another family member that means that the
organized organizations lose money because they don't get to make the millions of dollars off of an individual= for example, my earthly father was in prison for thirty five years=which means that for thrity five years somebody was paid to cloth and feed him and if we went to visit him, it was not good; not to mention the other two to three years of his life while he was on the outside; then they made money on him through experimentation,etc=all the way up to the end of his physical life in which the people at hospice were making money off of him=Why they have tried to put me on a path to ill health=handicapped,etc.=they want to make money off of me=So based upon extreme makeovers website=I do qualify and being that the computer lab is getting ready to close, I will continue, Lord willing tommorrow,
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7/30/07
Change of mind=came to the public library on 5th street=as I was writing=the other part is that to verify my statement about the fact that organized organizations stand in line first to make money off of who try to deal with things beyond their control, the Extreme Makeover website aslo states="
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."=meaning that inorder to qualify, social services=an organized organizations has to refer you=and in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina, if you do not have a JOB=they don't give a person help=therefore they do not qualify for other assistance=which if a person thinks about it, is backwards, not unless they really think about it=in which is makes a lot of sense; especially if you want to block certain individuals from receiving any type of help=which means they will have no other choice than to participate in illegal activities=???????To give examples=my nephew (whose mother is helping them) took a day off from work=becuase his employers(temporary agency) were trying to make him work 12 hours a day for seven days a week=until he goes back to college=I have been trying for over thirty plus years to work overtime in this city=has not happen=when I heard where they are making overtime= and applied=if I was lucky to get on and start working=they ALWAYS STOP the overtime=NOT COINCIDENTIAL=????which means that SOMEBODY???????????
The fact that "a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency" really presents a problem, because in the city of Winston=-Salem, North Carolina, most of the people including myself=have recieved help from the organized organizations but it has not helped the person to move beyond their temporary situation or transform their lives;but the opposite, kept them in the same situation or made things worse. Or maybe I should say it's like the medicine they give people now; on the one hand the head ache may be cured; but on the other hand the medicine gave them high blood pressure as a side effect of the medicine. For example, the food stamps helped them stay alive; but because they recieved the food stamps their name goes on a list that is passed from organization to organization, so that each organization can make money off of them; therefore, their employment,etc. opportunities are almost null and void because they become meat to the vultures. For the people who recieve the services to actually transform their lives, it means that the organized organization wouldn't have any clients/customers=as I was using their services, I use to say, something isn't right=???then finally I figured it out=10% of African Americans who go through their system and pass their what I call (in house nigger test=meaning they would sell their own people out)=either through mind control=being forced=???? (my earthly sister) or their own decision to be=????they=???allow that ten % to get jobs and get off of their organized organizations system=everybody else is left to figure out how to survive being passed back and forth between their organized organization system=for those who don't figure it out=they end up with some type of handicap, illness; therefore, off to the doctors they go (where they use them to make more money) and all the time the person is thinking=something is not quite right=why am I going through this=for those who do figure out part of it=they manage to get through hungry spells, no water, lights, food, etc. and some through a miracle, such as the African Americans on the Extreme Makeover television show in which they got a new house with their dream rooms.
Which brings me to this point; guess I (sent my name to the Extreme Makeover show and their response was that someone would look at my question and get back to me= that I can at least if I get seleceted I will look, like I'm moving forward in life, but then again don't know because I am not and have worked overtime not to be connected to one of the social agencie and one of Extreme Makeovers criteeria is
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a CHARITY must provide SOCIAL SERVICES that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency.
Please don't think that I think that I am too good; have been there did that=the key word in all of the statement above by Extreme Makeover is "enable families and indiviuals to move beyond their temporary situation"; the social agencies that I have encountered do not enable a family or person to move beyond their temporary situation; they enable them to stay in their temporary situation or to move to the next temporary situation.Go to any true African American community in which they are an American born citizen (except Katrina survivors)and ask them how long they have been living in their apartment/house, community; or even better ask them how long they have been on the temporary social service program,most of them will give the response that they have been off and on the local social service programs=why?????=because the local social service programs(and probably in other locations)are intended to KEEP the person from coming out of their temporary situation=because if the person came out of their temporary situation, two things would occur:first the people at the social service agency would NOT have a job; and second they would become in the social service,etc. mind=competitors=????
At the present moment, do not know how I will eat; don't want food stamps=need
foodstamps but know that if I(maybe not somebody else, but if I go and get them=THEY=???will put me on the list to continously stay on food stamps by not allowing me to make but a certain amount of income; For example, applied to work as a server=was put in the dish room=female by the name of Lisa (Caucasion(sp)) started about a two weeks after I started=she trained for two to three days and was on the floor making money=asked her how were her tips, etc.. she said with the 3.15 an hour and tips, she was making at least $200.00 a week=800.00 month, whereas they put me in the dish room making 6.50 an hour, but this week end only worked about 10 to twelve hours=65.00 week=if lucky=average every two weeks has been 89.00=176.00 month=when I have asked why can't I be a server; never given an answer; just passed from one person to the next; Now a lot of the teenagers at the restruarant, talk about Lisa; that she is slow, etc. and how she drives them up a wall, especially with her whining;and they can't figure out why she is working over some of the other more personable(sp) and better servers=answer=Lisa was the name of the person who was the manager at the local factory that I worked at that allowed hispanics to commit psychological torture on me for over two years; Lisa represents or is symbolic for that spirit(organizations,etc.) gaining victory of their illegal activity in my life=meaning that before they can do something in the natural realm, first they have to do it in the spirit realm=If they intend to steal/block avenues for me to compensated or intend to take money from me so that they make more money,etc.=then first they have to do it in the spirt realm=why LISA was hired after I was, put on the floor as a server and they put me in the dish room; as a server (suppose to be more prestegious) in a restruarant vs working in a dish room)=to them it means that if they do it in the spirit realm; they can do it in the natural realm=guess they can if=????except=?????
When growing up in middle school; started a business because there was very little money becaue my earthly father was in prison, so God gve me the idea to start selling popcorn and candy apples=every night I would make candy applesa nd pop popcorn, bag them and take them to school, the first time I went to school, remember, that I was a little nervous, for a lot of reasons; to make a long story short, the first day, I sold everything, I was happy; tried it the next day and I was even happier= my classmates started putting in orders so that the candy apples and popcorn were sold before I got to school the next day. I continued to sell candy apples and popcorn for a long time=to the point that my earthly mother=who I had asked to keep my money=was taking it and using it to feed, cloth and pay bills, but I didn't know it; but I was keeping up with how much I should have=so when I asked her for my money because I wanted to buy something; she informed me that she didn't have the money; that she had spent the money for food, and to pay bills. AT first the situation was a little strained, but knowing the situation, I understood, but think that may have been the reason that I stopped; POint is that on the news heard of a little girl who had a lemonade stand and had raised over $2000.00 over the summer at her lemonade stand=she was in the news because everybody was so pround of her, etc.=thought to myself and people think that someone who graduated with honors, don't have sense enough to come up with a legal product and sell it; even if it is lemonade, candy apples or popcorn.
The problem, for those of you who have no clue=is that first the little girl that was on the news=was (Caucasion) (sp);second think I have said this numerous times on various blogs=African Americans are not allowed to earn income/money=UNLESS=they have agreed to work for Caucasion males(sp)= or they are considered competitor=most African Americans born in the United States do not have a clue. For example, over the weekend, there was a story about a reporter by the name of Brown who was doing a story on a bakery. The story on CNN said that he was shot because somebody did not like the story he was doing. My condolences (sp) to the family. What people really should have paid attention to was the fact that they said on CNN, that the person who was in charge of the bakery at the time whose primary goal was to create JOBS for the African American youth, had been put in jail. Guarantee that the person in charge of the bakery(black male) did not have any idea that he was committing any type of crime by trying to create JOBS for the African American youth=at the url address for CNN, http://www.detnews.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070805/METRO/708050340
Jason Dearen / Associated Press/CNN wrote=" The Bakery's founder, Dr. Yusuf Bey, who opened his doors nearly 40 years ago hoping to inspire Oakland's poor to become "respectable and productive individuals." and "Pledging to empower the city's black community, Bey began selling bean and carrot pies"= Point is that there was a desire to provide economic development in the African American community=result=the African American male was put in confinement=????have not followed the complete story; only the fact that the person in charge of the bakery was trying to produce JOBS for African American youth and he ended up in confinement=(gift working)=along with the fact that the main issue in my life has been=being blocked out of a job=if a person has been blocked out of a job for over thirty years; they KNOW when others are being kept out of jobs as well as the fronts,etc. =Point=African Americans do not have the options to start a LEGAL lemonade stand in their community=let alone African American males,etc. UNLESS they want to be like the black male who ended up being put in confinement=??????
Since working in the dish room, what I have found out it that there are a lot of African American females in the dish room=use to be African American males=????=Back to LISA=as I was saying LISA was the name of the African American female supervisor that ignored what the hispanics were doing to me (one of the few times that I have been allowed to work over two years)=how LISA kept her job (paid to ignore what the hispanics were doing to me)=in fact that was her job=to act as cover for their illegal activity when they did something to another African American=so a lot of times when one sees two African Americans at odds with each other; one is usually getting paid to cover for usually Caucasion (sp) male system.
Still talking about social services=there was a story entitled "Where is Molly?" on CNN. The story was about a Caucasion male who had a sister that he use to play with when he was a child; but for somereason she was taken from him and when he question his mother or father about his sister, "Molly" he was told that he could not see her and punished when he questioned them; so he never mention his sister again until his mother and father passed; then he started searching for her. He finanlly found her through a file his father had kept and he located her social security number, which lead him to a state hospital for retarded people=which they had closed because of the ill treatment of the people that stayed there. Long story short the man found his sister located in a group home, doing good. From there he became her legal gurardian, and looked forward to taking care of his sister= which really makes me happy for Molly and sad for me=because on the flip side=my brother and sister who were the mentally and socially challenged ones in the family are the ones who have been allowed to progress in life=lead/make money=while on the other hand, myself being classified as a genius have been abused, denied opportunity, etc.punished because I can think=problem=I was thinking like a FREE person; thinking everybody was born equal at least by law if nothing else=wrong; which means that while "Molly" is searched for to be helped, my family members because they are told what to think=are trying to clssify me as koo koo; my sister goes out of her way to help hispanics=(called a local school to complain about the treatment of a hispanic female that she didn't know=but was TOLD to do so=through their silent communication sytem (I call it mind control)but not once=KNOWING what they are doing to me=have spoken to one person, have not once went to one of the thousands of dam situations and confronted them for what they are doing to me=???? (excuse me she did once=went with me over to Winston-Salem State University=and was probably told not to do it again=because she didn't=not to mention that my earthly brother=the one that everone said was slow=whose made the most money in the family=with nothing to show for it=is the one that they have allowed to be around me=???? no ones knows how insulting it is to have a dam stupid ass look at you like he knows something when you know his thinking is ass backwards=excuse when you know that he's operating under mind control=that is scary=if they don't tell them to think it=they don't know what to think=????=IN other words="Molly" white female=retarded=allowed to be connected with her family or I should say her brother=also on the news program they said that their parents were told that they should not keep a retarded child at home whereas myself being a genius, seeking steady work for over three decades, harassed daily, etc.=punished for being an African American or being an competitor(??????) have been treated as if retarded (know that it is not normal to go through all the shit I have gone through without going off=like I said thought that I was born free and the systems in this country would work=)=do know that if a person is constantly tormented and abused, they will become retarded or worse=because it demeans a person takes away their humanistic nature(makes them a thing)=as someone says, it makes the person numb after they have gone through so much, so it becomes difficult for them to react like a normal person=BUT/NAD I have a feeling that a lot of African Americans who should be classified as genius are being turned into retarded ass ?????=all with their families help because in the United States of America African American families are not allowed to help/care for each other,. because then that would mean that social service does not get to make money off of them.
Now someone and God keeps telling me/and I keep asking about=proof that African Americans are punished if they try to help their own race=GOD said, "Tell them this"=If anyone who reads this (hopefully before it is too late=figured out that they read my blog; then make corrections so it looks as if I don't know what I am talking about) would go to any parking lot that they can see from a two story or higher=makesure that the parking lot is empty=look down at the parking lot and what you will see=because everything that is done in the dark, shall come to light=is a parking lot that looks like domino's=and I say domino's because where there should be clean parking spaces, the parking spaces have a lot of black spots=why does the parking lot have a lot of black spots=because all of the cars have leaks=why do all the cars have leaks=because the cars are made in the factory to have the oil leaks, which lead to other problems related to lack of oil/oil leaks in a car=Everytime a car gets leak that means that the oil company where the motor oil is made=gets money, the machanic who does the repair gets money, the people who make the parts for problems related to oil leaks in cars gets money,etcc., people in the automobil industry probably know who else get paid=And you can go to ANY city and find that there are parking lots in which the parkings spaces all have MAJOR oil stains where cars have parked and the oil has leaked out=as much money that they spend on research, etc. and they can't stop an oil leak=???in fact as I think about it=oil companies that product motor oil for cars would be a good investment=??????God said EVRYTHING that they have or will do in terms will come to light=meaning that the situation with the cars is evident=and if you shuld happen to see a all of a SUDDEN increase in the people/companies that wash parking lots=you know they have read this blog.
To myself, talking about the oil spots on parking lots, is proof that something major is going on with cars having oil leaks, in terms of it being proof that African Americans are punished for helping their family members=????=but if God said write it=then somehow it will lead to the proof=And while I am thinking about it, one of the ways, is to go to any African American born females house in which they have not agreed to punish their relatives and you will find that they are not allowed to have their male family members help them in or around their house. For example, being that my income levels dictates that my meals are once a day, if lucky; my energy level does not allow me to genreate the energy necessary to cut the hedges and bushes in the yard=which I use to do=because when I tried to get some of the young African American males and females (children) about fifteen years ago to help me in the yard; after they helped me for about a month=they were moved=mother and children=they were struggling real bad, and I was trying to help them as much as possible, while they were helping me;long story short=talked to the mother=after her children started helping me=then she started have problems with the city about paying taxes on her house, which she could not do; and within a two to three month period of time, she and her children had moved out of the neigborhood=because that takes control away from me in terms of having someone who would help me with doing pysical work, which means it makes me have to put out physically (also limits what I can get done=interms of progress vs African American who helps the white male system=who they allow African American children and males to help so that they can progress), which is stressful, thereby etc.=and if you factor in the fact that my earthly brothers were not in the city (and the fact that the two that were in the city were killed, then that leaves me doing all the pysical work)=which leads to (gurantee same scenerio(sp)is going on throughout the AFrican American community) me going throught he second phase of trying to beg my male relatives to come and help me cut the bushes/hedges at the house.
Have asked my earthly brother who is allowed to make money to please ask my nephews to come and cut the bushes/hedges; also asked my earthly sister=both just laugh=they tell me to tell them=when because of the mind control=nephews told who is who in the family=they just laugh=but now if I agreed to help the white male system=which means I agree to attack and abuse my family members, all the males in the family would be allowed to come and cut the hudges and the bushes; so guess I better request prayer that the African American males in my family will be allowed to come and help me do physcial work=NOw they are allowed to do anything that my eartly sister requests=?????because she will always tell them what the white male system tells her to tell them and being that she is the one with the stability, money, etc,. stupids will listen to her; therefore white males control the entire family=??????=and it is a slight problem if you have another voice saying God made the family to love each other, not abuse each other=which brings me to=being that I have been in the church since I was TWO years old=over four decades (family members know that)=almost on a daily basis=why I am tired of going to church=my earthly sister on the other hand has been in the church for maybe a total of one month if you add up all the day on a day by day basis=which presents another problem to the white male system=so how are they handling that=they are using her eartly boyfriend=one way=have him in church here recently for about two months=she goes every now and then with him=thus=plan is that she will become religious=therefore=other family members will again follow=because she will be serving God=but she will be serving the WHITE God, not the God that put Jesus Christ of Nazareth on the face of the earth=because even as one minister said=if you are really serving God and doing what he is telling you to do, you will not have to tell me=the words say that his blessing will be all over you=meaning money,etc..=which brings me to the whate male system must be God, because I have yet to see the financial blessing on me=now there are some pastors in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who do know that I have been serving the real God, who made Jesus Christ of Nazareth, but some of them like their money and there fore, sister let me pray for you, but I need to eat, and not sharing my money because I don't want to be attacked=which is OKAY because God showed me=like the minister who told me "TAKE CARE"=God showed me his fate will probably that of Larry Leon Hamlin=they have already prepared him and his social buddies psychologically=he was one of the ones when I went to him=that he said that I need help= he knew I was telling the truth, but wanted that money=????=so unless God does some serious movement in my life economically, my family members will follow my earthly siter who they are preparing to follow a false God=can't really fought them because my earhtly sister gets rewarded for helpin them, whereas I get punished for not helping them=it is always better to have food.
Personally I think I deserve and qualify for an EXTREME MAKEOVER, even if one of the criteria is: "To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency." Even if I DO NOT have an organize social service organization in my life I NEED an EXTREME MAKEOVER"=would prefer to have the money to do it myself; but always thankful,etc..
Peacenowst
So went on website www.abettercommunity.com in which they asked for volunteers=would rather be a volunteer=reality says ask for help=so I looked for qualifications to get help with a house and they are as follows:
"Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."
Remember when I wrote on my blog that they were trying to make me homeless=???even though I was part owner in a house, and my family was doing repairs to the house when I was out of it; as soon as I moved back in the house=they stopped doing repair work on the house; then I met the minister who I heard on the radio that gives away food, clothes, shoes, furniture, etc.=in which thank God he did give me some food to tide me over and he did give me work in the church office for a minute=in which I observed him continuously repairing furniture, giving food and clothes away, etc.. It was even promised after the minister saw the house, because he use to have a remodeling company, that he would help me to repair the house and then help me to put furniture in the house.
As I observed him giving furniture away to other people; I asked when he was going to help me=long story short=the answers were excuses not to help me=????even though I knew he was doing the best he could=he and his wife are good people with good hearts=because of gift I knew that they were dealing with the demons and were trying to hear from God=meaning that in order for him to my pastor=he has to know what demons I have overcome=in order to lead me=therefore, after I joined the church, he stayed in spiritual warfare; in which to tell someone what he has experienced, nobody would=correction=there are some people that do understand and know about some of the situations in which God showed me how to overcome.
Which still brings me back to this point; first my income and second the house with no furniture, etc.=as stated by the Exteme Makeover website=
” Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.“
My income=which has been at $2,000.00 per year on average=even with two degrees=can’t make people hire me or stop them from interfering with my trying to make an income on my own=”One lady said that she would get up every day and just pester them=told her that I had did that=applied with Wachovia for over thirteen years=to find out that they had hired an African American female to keep out other African Americans=heard it on the news or some people talking about it=remember saying to myself=well that’s why I got no return phone calls after thirteen years=in fact that is what they still have in the city of Winston-Salem, now they are using Hispanics as well as African Americans=who is going to stop them=in which the real problem comes when people realize what is going on and try to earn money on their on=but when they do they are punished and attacked if they try to earn their own income or if any of their family members try to help them=because for every person that is stopped from making their own money=somebody has to supply them with money from somewhere=if they just utterly refuse to go to any type of social service; then they are forced into other activities in which would be consider to be illegal; prostitution, drugs, etc.,or they have to be gay to earn their money or they are classified as mentally ill=meaning that for the most part in regards to my earning an adequate income, etc. the circumstances ARE beyond my control; not God’s but mine=I do not have the resources to combat an established century old system of blocking African Americans out of the economic mainstream for no other evident reason than that they love their own people.
For every time a family member helps another family member that means that the
organized organizations lose money because they don't get to make the millions of dollars off of an individual= for example, my earthly father was in prison for thirty five years=which means that for thrity five years somebody was paid to cloth and feed him and if we went to visit him, it was not good; not to mention the other two to three years of his life while he was on the outside; then they made money on him through experimentation,etc=all the way up to the end of his physical life in which the people at hospice were making money off of him=Why they have tried to put me on a path to ill health=handicapped,etc.=they want to make money off of me=So based upon extreme makeovers website=I do qualify and being that the computer lab is getting ready to close, I will continue, Lord willing tommorrow,
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7/30/07
Change of mind=came to the public library on 5th street=as I was writing=the other part is that to verify my statement about the fact that organized organizations stand in line first to make money off of who try to deal with things beyond their control, the Extreme Makeover website aslo states="
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."=meaning that inorder to qualify, social services=an organized organizations has to refer you=and in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina, if you do not have a JOB=they don't give a person help=therefore they do not qualify for other assistance=which if a person thinks about it, is backwards, not unless they really think about it=in which is makes a lot of sense; especially if you want to block certain individuals from receiving any type of help=which means they will have no other choice than to participate in illegal activities=???????To give examples=my nephew (whose mother is helping them) took a day off from work=becuase his employers(temporary agency) were trying to make him work 12 hours a day for seven days a week=until he goes back to college=I have been trying for over thirty plus years to work overtime in this city=has not happen=when I heard where they are making overtime= and applied=if I was lucky to get on and start working=they ALWAYS STOP the overtime=NOT COINCIDENTIAL=????which means that SOMEBODY???????????
The fact that "a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency" really presents a problem, because in the city of Winston=-Salem, North Carolina, most of the people including myself=have recieved help from the organized organizations but it has not helped the person to move beyond their temporary situation or transform their lives;but the opposite, kept them in the same situation or made things worse. Or maybe I should say it's like the medicine they give people now; on the one hand the head ache may be cured; but on the other hand the medicine gave them high blood pressure as a side effect of the medicine. For example, the food stamps helped them stay alive; but because they recieved the food stamps their name goes on a list that is passed from organization to organization, so that each organization can make money off of them; therefore, their employment,etc. opportunities are almost null and void because they become meat to the vultures. For the people who recieve the services to actually transform their lives, it means that the organized organization wouldn't have any clients/customers=as I was using their services, I use to say, something isn't right=???then finally I figured it out=10% of African Americans who go through their system and pass their what I call (in house nigger test=meaning they would sell their own people out)=either through mind control=being forced=???? (my earthly sister) or their own decision to be=????they=???allow that ten % to get jobs and get off of their organized organizations system=everybody else is left to figure out how to survive being passed back and forth between their organized organization system=for those who don't figure it out=they end up with some type of handicap, illness; therefore, off to the doctors they go (where they use them to make more money) and all the time the person is thinking=something is not quite right=why am I going through this=for those who do figure out part of it=they manage to get through hungry spells, no water, lights, food, etc. and some through a miracle, such as the African Americans on the Extreme Makeover television show in which they got a new house with their dream rooms.
Which brings me to this point; guess I (sent my name to the Extreme Makeover show and their response was that someone would look at my question and get back to me= that I can at least if I get seleceted I will look, like I'm moving forward in life, but then again don't know because I am not and have worked overtime not to be connected to one of the social agencie and one of Extreme Makeovers criteeria is
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a CHARITY must provide SOCIAL SERVICES that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency.
Please don't think that I think that I am too good; have been there did that=the key word in all of the statement above by Extreme Makeover is "enable families and indiviuals to move beyond their temporary situation"; the social agencies that I have encountered do not enable a family or person to move beyond their temporary situation; they enable them to stay in their temporary situation or to move to the next temporary situation.Go to any true African American community in which they are an American born citizen (except Katrina survivors)and ask them how long they have been living in their apartment/house, community; or even better ask them how long they have been on the temporary social service program,most of them will give the response that they have been off and on the local social service programs=why?????=because the local social service programs(and probably in other locations)are intended to KEEP the person from coming out of their temporary situation=because if the person came out of their temporary situation, two things would occur:first the people at the social service agency would NOT have a job; and second they would become in the social service,etc. mind=competitors=????
At the present moment, do not know how I will eat; don't want food stamps=need
foodstamps but know that if I(maybe not somebody else, but if I go and get them=THEY=???will put me on the list to continously stay on food stamps by not allowing me to make but a certain amount of income; For example, applied to work as a server=was put in the dish room=female by the name of Lisa (Caucasion(sp)) started about a two weeks after I started=she trained for two to three days and was on the floor making money=asked her how were her tips, etc.. she said with the 3.15 an hour and tips, she was making at least $200.00 a week=800.00 month, whereas they put me in the dish room making 6.50 an hour, but this week end only worked about 10 to twelve hours=65.00 week=if lucky=average every two weeks has been 89.00=176.00 month=when I have asked why can't I be a server; never given an answer; just passed from one person to the next; Now a lot of the teenagers at the restruarant, talk about Lisa; that she is slow, etc. and how she drives them up a wall, especially with her whining;and they can't figure out why she is working over some of the other more personable(sp) and better servers=answer=Lisa was the name of the person who was the manager at the local factory that I worked at that allowed hispanics to commit psychological torture on me for over two years; Lisa represents or is symbolic for that spirit(organizations,etc.) gaining victory of their illegal activity in my life=meaning that before they can do something in the natural realm, first they have to do it in the spirit realm=If they intend to steal/block avenues for me to compensated or intend to take money from me so that they make more money,etc.=then first they have to do it in the spirt realm=why LISA was hired after I was, put on the floor as a server and they put me in the dish room; as a server (suppose to be more prestegious) in a restruarant vs working in a dish room)=to them it means that if they do it in the spirit realm; they can do it in the natural realm=guess they can if=????except=?????
When growing up in middle school; started a business because there was very little money becaue my earthly father was in prison, so God gve me the idea to start selling popcorn and candy apples=every night I would make candy applesa nd pop popcorn, bag them and take them to school, the first time I went to school, remember, that I was a little nervous, for a lot of reasons; to make a long story short, the first day, I sold everything, I was happy; tried it the next day and I was even happier= my classmates started putting in orders so that the candy apples and popcorn were sold before I got to school the next day. I continued to sell candy apples and popcorn for a long time=to the point that my earthly mother=who I had asked to keep my money=was taking it and using it to feed, cloth and pay bills, but I didn't know it; but I was keeping up with how much I should have=so when I asked her for my money because I wanted to buy something; she informed me that she didn't have the money; that she had spent the money for food, and to pay bills. AT first the situation was a little strained, but knowing the situation, I understood, but think that may have been the reason that I stopped; POint is that on the news heard of a little girl who had a lemonade stand and had raised over $2000.00 over the summer at her lemonade stand=she was in the news because everybody was so pround of her, etc.=thought to myself and people think that someone who graduated with honors, don't have sense enough to come up with a legal product and sell it; even if it is lemonade, candy apples or popcorn.
The problem, for those of you who have no clue=is that first the little girl that was on the news=was (Caucasion) (sp);second think I have said this numerous times on various blogs=African Americans are not allowed to earn income/money=UNLESS=they have agreed to work for Caucasion males(sp)= or they are considered competitor=most African Americans born in the United States do not have a clue. For example, over the weekend, there was a story about a reporter by the name of Brown who was doing a story on a bakery. The story on CNN said that he was shot because somebody did not like the story he was doing. My condolences (sp) to the family. What people really should have paid attention to was the fact that they said on CNN, that the person who was in charge of the bakery at the time whose primary goal was to create JOBS for the African American youth, had been put in jail. Guarantee that the person in charge of the bakery(black male) did not have any idea that he was committing any type of crime by trying to create JOBS for the African American youth=at the url address for CNN, http://www.detnews.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070805/METRO/708050340
Jason Dearen / Associated Press/CNN wrote=" The Bakery's founder, Dr. Yusuf Bey, who opened his doors nearly 40 years ago hoping to inspire Oakland's poor to become "respectable and productive individuals." and "Pledging to empower the city's black community, Bey began selling bean and carrot pies"= Point is that there was a desire to provide economic development in the African American community=result=the African American male was put in confinement=????have not followed the complete story; only the fact that the person in charge of the bakery was trying to produce JOBS for African American youth and he ended up in confinement=(gift working)=along with the fact that the main issue in my life has been=being blocked out of a job=if a person has been blocked out of a job for over thirty years; they KNOW when others are being kept out of jobs as well as the fronts,etc. =Point=African Americans do not have the options to start a LEGAL lemonade stand in their community=let alone African American males,etc. UNLESS they want to be like the black male who ended up being put in confinement=??????
Since working in the dish room, what I have found out it that there are a lot of African American females in the dish room=use to be African American males=????=Back to LISA=as I was saying LISA was the name of the African American female supervisor that ignored what the hispanics were doing to me (one of the few times that I have been allowed to work over two years)=how LISA kept her job (paid to ignore what the hispanics were doing to me)=in fact that was her job=to act as cover for their illegal activity when they did something to another African American=so a lot of times when one sees two African Americans at odds with each other; one is usually getting paid to cover for usually Caucasion (sp) male system.
Still talking about social services=there was a story entitled "Where is Molly?" on CNN. The story was about a Caucasion male who had a sister that he use to play with when he was a child; but for somereason she was taken from him and when he question his mother or father about his sister, "Molly" he was told that he could not see her and punished when he questioned them; so he never mention his sister again until his mother and father passed; then he started searching for her. He finanlly found her through a file his father had kept and he located her social security number, which lead him to a state hospital for retarded people=which they had closed because of the ill treatment of the people that stayed there. Long story short the man found his sister located in a group home, doing good. From there he became her legal gurardian, and looked forward to taking care of his sister= which really makes me happy for Molly and sad for me=because on the flip side=my brother and sister who were the mentally and socially challenged ones in the family are the ones who have been allowed to progress in life=lead/make money=while on the other hand, myself being classified as a genius have been abused, denied opportunity, etc.punished because I can think=problem=I was thinking like a FREE person; thinking everybody was born equal at least by law if nothing else=wrong; which means that while "Molly" is searched for to be helped, my family members because they are told what to think=are trying to clssify me as koo koo; my sister goes out of her way to help hispanics=(called a local school to complain about the treatment of a hispanic female that she didn't know=but was TOLD to do so=through their silent communication sytem (I call it mind control)but not once=KNOWING what they are doing to me=have spoken to one person, have not once went to one of the thousands of dam situations and confronted them for what they are doing to me=???? (excuse me she did once=went with me over to Winston-Salem State University=and was probably told not to do it again=because she didn't=not to mention that my earthly brother=the one that everone said was slow=whose made the most money in the family=with nothing to show for it=is the one that they have allowed to be around me=???? no ones knows how insulting it is to have a dam stupid ass look at you like he knows something when you know his thinking is ass backwards=excuse when you know that he's operating under mind control=that is scary=if they don't tell them to think it=they don't know what to think=????=IN other words="Molly" white female=retarded=allowed to be connected with her family or I should say her brother=also on the news program they said that their parents were told that they should not keep a retarded child at home whereas myself being a genius, seeking steady work for over three decades, harassed daily, etc.=punished for being an African American or being an competitor(??????) have been treated as if retarded (know that it is not normal to go through all the shit I have gone through without going off=like I said thought that I was born free and the systems in this country would work=)=do know that if a person is constantly tormented and abused, they will become retarded or worse=because it demeans a person takes away their humanistic nature(makes them a thing)=as someone says, it makes the person numb after they have gone through so much, so it becomes difficult for them to react like a normal person=BUT/NAD I have a feeling that a lot of African Americans who should be classified as genius are being turned into retarded ass ?????=all with their families help because in the United States of America African American families are not allowed to help/care for each other,. because then that would mean that social service does not get to make money off of them.
Now someone and God keeps telling me/and I keep asking about=proof that African Americans are punished if they try to help their own race=GOD said, "Tell them this"=If anyone who reads this (hopefully before it is too late=figured out that they read my blog; then make corrections so it looks as if I don't know what I am talking about) would go to any parking lot that they can see from a two story or higher=makesure that the parking lot is empty=look down at the parking lot and what you will see=because everything that is done in the dark, shall come to light=is a parking lot that looks like domino's=and I say domino's because where there should be clean parking spaces, the parking spaces have a lot of black spots=why does the parking lot have a lot of black spots=because all of the cars have leaks=why do all the cars have leaks=because the cars are made in the factory to have the oil leaks, which lead to other problems related to lack of oil/oil leaks in a car=Everytime a car gets leak that means that the oil company where the motor oil is made=gets money, the machanic who does the repair gets money, the people who make the parts for problems related to oil leaks in cars gets money,etcc., people in the automobil industry probably know who else get paid=And you can go to ANY city and find that there are parking lots in which the parkings spaces all have MAJOR oil stains where cars have parked and the oil has leaked out=as much money that they spend on research, etc. and they can't stop an oil leak=???in fact as I think about it=oil companies that product motor oil for cars would be a good investment=??????God said EVRYTHING that they have or will do in terms will come to light=meaning that the situation with the cars is evident=and if you shuld happen to see a all of a SUDDEN increase in the people/companies that wash parking lots=you know they have read this blog.
To myself, talking about the oil spots on parking lots, is proof that something major is going on with cars having oil leaks, in terms of it being proof that African Americans are punished for helping their family members=????=but if God said write it=then somehow it will lead to the proof=And while I am thinking about it, one of the ways, is to go to any African American born females house in which they have not agreed to punish their relatives and you will find that they are not allowed to have their male family members help them in or around their house. For example, being that my income levels dictates that my meals are once a day, if lucky; my energy level does not allow me to genreate the energy necessary to cut the hedges and bushes in the yard=which I use to do=because when I tried to get some of the young African American males and females (children) about fifteen years ago to help me in the yard; after they helped me for about a month=they were moved=mother and children=they were struggling real bad, and I was trying to help them as much as possible, while they were helping me;long story short=talked to the mother=after her children started helping me=then she started have problems with the city about paying taxes on her house, which she could not do; and within a two to three month period of time, she and her children had moved out of the neigborhood=because that takes control away from me in terms of having someone who would help me with doing pysical work, which means it makes me have to put out physically (also limits what I can get done=interms of progress vs African American who helps the white male system=who they allow African American children and males to help so that they can progress), which is stressful, thereby etc.=and if you factor in the fact that my earthly brothers were not in the city (and the fact that the two that were in the city were killed, then that leaves me doing all the pysical work)=which leads to (gurantee same scenerio(sp)is going on throughout the AFrican American community) me going throught he second phase of trying to beg my male relatives to come and help me cut the bushes/hedges at the house.
Have asked my earthly brother who is allowed to make money to please ask my nephews to come and cut the bushes/hedges; also asked my earthly sister=both just laugh=they tell me to tell them=when because of the mind control=nephews told who is who in the family=they just laugh=but now if I agreed to help the white male system=which means I agree to attack and abuse my family members, all the males in the family would be allowed to come and cut the hudges and the bushes; so guess I better request prayer that the African American males in my family will be allowed to come and help me do physcial work=NOw they are allowed to do anything that my eartly sister requests=?????because she will always tell them what the white male system tells her to tell them and being that she is the one with the stability, money, etc,. stupids will listen to her; therefore white males control the entire family=??????=and it is a slight problem if you have another voice saying God made the family to love each other, not abuse each other=which brings me to=being that I have been in the church since I was TWO years old=over four decades (family members know that)=almost on a daily basis=why I am tired of going to church=my earthly sister on the other hand has been in the church for maybe a total of one month if you add up all the day on a day by day basis=which presents another problem to the white male system=so how are they handling that=they are using her eartly boyfriend=one way=have him in church here recently for about two months=she goes every now and then with him=thus=plan is that she will become religious=therefore=other family members will again follow=because she will be serving God=but she will be serving the WHITE God, not the God that put Jesus Christ of Nazareth on the face of the earth=because even as one minister said=if you are really serving God and doing what he is telling you to do, you will not have to tell me=the words say that his blessing will be all over you=meaning money,etc..=which brings me to the whate male system must be God, because I have yet to see the financial blessing on me=now there are some pastors in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who do know that I have been serving the real God, who made Jesus Christ of Nazareth, but some of them like their money and there fore, sister let me pray for you, but I need to eat, and not sharing my money because I don't want to be attacked=which is OKAY because God showed me=like the minister who told me "TAKE CARE"=God showed me his fate will probably that of Larry Leon Hamlin=they have already prepared him and his social buddies psychologically=he was one of the ones when I went to him=that he said that I need help= he knew I was telling the truth, but wanted that money=????=so unless God does some serious movement in my life economically, my family members will follow my earthly siter who they are preparing to follow a false God=can't really fought them because my earhtly sister gets rewarded for helpin them, whereas I get punished for not helping them=it is always better to have food.
Personally I think I deserve and qualify for an EXTREME MAKEOVER, even if one of the criteria is: "To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency." Even if I DO NOT have an organize social service organization in my life I NEED an EXTREME MAKEOVER"=would prefer to have the money to do it myself; but always thankful,etc..
Peacenowst
Monday, July 23, 2007
Don't steal name!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7/23/07 Please pray again for the name"Peacenowst"=following the instructions of the "Holy Spirit" went to various search engines and typed in peacenowst in which on most of the websites, only my articles exist; pray that it will remain that way in order that people don't get the name Peacenowst mixed up with the one that somebody started using shortly after I started posting on the internet; the only differance is that they capitalize the st=?????know it is not coincidental that the name was started after I started posting on the internet and know that whoever started using the name intends to use it in a negative sense; if(based upon what God has shown me)the names becomes famous=they intend to use it negatively if they can't control me=they will try and control the name to confuse people;so gain pray and continue to pray that God will reveal who they are;so that they will run from the name Peacenowst; also pray for my relative in Greensboro; their bosses placed them in a position where there were three white males (my punishement) that thought that she was doing something to mislead a young white female with mental issues=told her that the girl did things without thinking about how it affects others=they=???her bosses= are trying to force my relative to join them in what they are doing=not good=as well as make them think (know they have a name connection with the young white female) that I do things without thinking how it affects other people=so their punishment is to be put in situations in which they feel the affects of being with people who do not think about it affects other people=I do what God it telling me(the one who made heaven and earth=so please pray that all my relatives will be stress free and live and declare the glory of the Lord=also pray that Willie will live stress free and declare the glory of the Lord=After I called him and left him a message about the female worker that they placed on the floor to work with him;that she was placed there to cause him to go in the opposite direction from which the real God wanted him to go=didn't tell Willie, but she was placed there to sidetrack him into the direction that the white male God wanted him to go=set up=etc.=his supervisor=a hispanic male is the one that put her on the floor to work with him=wrote about the fact that they had switched him from one restuarant to a second one and had made his supervisor a hispanic=????=sort of like they have made most of the manager Univeristy hispanic; fixed it so none of the restuarant telephones work or rather so that a customer have to go to the back and use the phone=????=not good=as well as fixed it so that the pay telephones don't work=they five you the wrong information=if you put in phone number that works=a recording on the phone will say"sorry they nmumber is out of rder and it isn't out of order; but imagine someone with only a few dollars, the phone takes their money; then they have to go and ask one of the hsipanic managers for ahelp /to use the phone and the managers says no or ylou have to come to the back=????strange that they wouldn't have cordless phones=????=heard that they had had a bomb scare downtown after I left a message for Willie about the girl=?????=imagine that someone would go to those lenghts in order to stop a relationship. Also pray for me at work=I got a fifty cents raise and a card that said that I had did a good job when working in the dish room=I was very proud and happy=because first of alll=I always do a good job=read somewhere="Think and Grow Rich" by Nepolean Hill that no job is too small for a person who wants to be rich=in which bit convinced me to always strive to do a good job, no matter how small, the most interesting thing is that that is the FIRST time since I have been working that anyone recognized that I did a good job=when I told the teenagers that I had gotten a card for doing a good job=they were like so what, we get them all the time=but then one did say that when the restruarant gave them out it was rare=whatever; I was pround of my card=pray that God continues to bless=especially with a steady income=Thanks for your prayers and may peace be within thy walls and prosperity within thy palaces. Peacenowst
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Friday, July 20, 2007
Tribute to Larry Leon Hamlin=Marvtastic!!!!!!????
7/20/07
This blog is a tribute to Larry Leon Hamlin who I first met when he first came back to Winston-Salem and started to North Carolina Black Theater Festival/ N C Black Repretory Co. At the time I was trying to buy a building for $1.00 from the city of High Point; and Larry help guide me in writing as well as presenting the proposal. After presenting the proposal, Larry said just wait they will let you know something; which I waited and a little later the City of High Point did let me know that they had given the building to someone else for a dollar; and a little later, I found out that the city of High Point was opening up a new Barn Dinner Theater=which could have been the same Dinner Theater that I had in my proposal=????BUT things went on; I continued to help Larry with the North Carolina Black Theater Festival=it started growing and actors came to the city=I began to met stars=it was all very exciting; then life sat in=had to pay bills so started doing things that took me from helping Larry with the development of the theater company.
In fact he and his wife Sylvia Sprinkle Hamlin came to my wedding (in which I was very honored) where I later found out that my husband was a plant (spy) in my life and there was some form of communication and activity in terms of participating with the North Carolina Black Repertory Company on a continuous basis for years; in fact you could ALMOST say that I was one of the very first VOLUNTEERS= But because I had participated from the beginning; I watched as it grew=offers to volunteer continued to come to the house; but I never participated again; other than to go and watch some of the plays and maybe meet a star that I wanted to meet.
I had heard that Larry was sick from one of the people that knew that I had did volunteer work for him some decades ago; they said they did not know what was wrong with him=but I had an idea; as I said I had kept up with the theater's growth, etc.=for example, he always wore dark shades=and was aware of outside pressures for there to change=anyway to make a long story short; I meant to write about my experience with Larry Leon Hamlin some months ago; but got side tracked; which makes me wonder=??? Everytime I do not do as God tells me and write about something=the person who I am suppose to write about ends up in a bad way=anyway God said=Larry's leaving the earth/natural realm was early=as a result the North Carolina Black Repertory (sp) Co. would take a different direction=catering more to Caucasians than African Americans=that Larry's body carried the proof to anybody who knows and understands chemicals=they are hid in his body (if left or ashes-if they are his); but if investigated thoroughly, they would discover that with a little alteration concerning certain things; Larry Leon Hamlin would still be here in the natural realm.
Peacenowst
This blog is a tribute to Larry Leon Hamlin who I first met when he first came back to Winston-Salem and started to North Carolina Black Theater Festival/ N C Black Repretory Co. At the time I was trying to buy a building for $1.00 from the city of High Point; and Larry help guide me in writing as well as presenting the proposal. After presenting the proposal, Larry said just wait they will let you know something; which I waited and a little later the City of High Point did let me know that they had given the building to someone else for a dollar; and a little later, I found out that the city of High Point was opening up a new Barn Dinner Theater=which could have been the same Dinner Theater that I had in my proposal=????BUT things went on; I continued to help Larry with the North Carolina Black Theater Festival=it started growing and actors came to the city=I began to met stars=it was all very exciting; then life sat in=had to pay bills so started doing things that took me from helping Larry with the development of the theater company.
In fact he and his wife Sylvia Sprinkle Hamlin came to my wedding (in which I was very honored) where I later found out that my husband was a plant (spy) in my life and there was some form of communication and activity in terms of participating with the North Carolina Black Repertory Company on a continuous basis for years; in fact you could ALMOST say that I was one of the very first VOLUNTEERS= But because I had participated from the beginning; I watched as it grew=offers to volunteer continued to come to the house; but I never participated again; other than to go and watch some of the plays and maybe meet a star that I wanted to meet.
I had heard that Larry was sick from one of the people that knew that I had did volunteer work for him some decades ago; they said they did not know what was wrong with him=but I had an idea; as I said I had kept up with the theater's growth, etc.=for example, he always wore dark shades=and was aware of outside pressures for there to change=anyway to make a long story short; I meant to write about my experience with Larry Leon Hamlin some months ago; but got side tracked; which makes me wonder=??? Everytime I do not do as God tells me and write about something=the person who I am suppose to write about ends up in a bad way=anyway God said=Larry's leaving the earth/natural realm was early=as a result the North Carolina Black Repertory (sp) Co. would take a different direction=catering more to Caucasians than African Americans=that Larry's body carried the proof to anybody who knows and understands chemicals=they are hid in his body (if left or ashes-if they are his); but if investigated thoroughly, they would discover that with a little alteration concerning certain things; Larry Leon Hamlin would still be here in the natural realm.
Peacenowst
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
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7/17/07 Please pray concerning the following, especially that God will give me a way in which to understand their communication system=or rather that I will understand how God would want me to deal with each situation that I deal with them so that I can have peace and prosperity= Thanks for your prayers and may peace and prosperity be within thy walls and palaces. ???????????????? 7/17/07 Went to the EEOC today; road the 'PART' bus =same owner of the Winston-Salem Transit Authority and the Greensboro Transit Authority=yesterday, I wrote in my notes or on my blog that the "PART" bus(black) was part of them controlling the situation to the extent that they were controlling a person's breathe=why they have no windows for a person to open=their process of taking controll away from the person so that in the spirit realm=if necessary they are controlling the person to the point that they take control of their breathe=(know I wrote that twice)=Anyway I wrote it yesterday and today when coming back from Greensboro=to confirm that they they are open with every thing that they do=on Highway 40 West, before getting off exit 211=(gALLIMORE Dairy Road)=they have an ad up="PART-THINK ART-BREATHE-SOLUTION=in other words=have wrote how the use art before on one of my entries on Blog=???=they=???don't hide what they do=they are very open=most people don't recognize what they are doing=???=This morning when I got on the PART bus=they had the same female who took me the first time=(2ND TIME)that I had went to high shcool with=this time when she pulled out of the stall and was going to turn right on to Liberty Street=only way to turn=when an authorize vehichle pulled over a white vehicle in front of her=She asked as well as one of her church members that was on the bus=what is his problem=the church member siad=what is his car number=I'm calling his supervisor=WHY would he pull the person over to block the street=when he could have pulled them over after they turned the corner=the driver said=well I can't go around=a car may hit me coming over the hill=because they can't see; so she just sat=and kept saying=I need to get going cause I will be late and she kept blowing the horn; finally he moved to the side and waved to tell her it was okay to turn=???Why he (white male) did it=why I don't like appointments=is because I was on the bus with her driving for the 2ND time=I call it witchcraft=so on the way to the High Point bus depot where they transfer buses to get to Greensboro=I asked the driver if she could call and ask them if they would hold the bus to Greensboro=she asked how many needed the bus to Greensboro and all of them did=then she called and she said they would hold the bus for five minutes=then I felt something on my back=black female sitting behind me had taken her ink PEN and poked me in the back=????God said ignore=so I did=prior to my requesting that the bus to Greensboro be pulled over=at Kernerville, one of the small white supervisor vans tried to tell the driver to pull over so that they could take the people to High Point=the driver said are you koko=it is time for my break when I get to High Point=the driver (lady) said well; their supervisor said that she should just let her take the people on the small white van=she had stopped the black PART bus in the middle of the street at the stop light=horns were blowing=finally, the PART bus pulled off. When I got to greensboro=lot of strange stuff=lot of vans with CINTAS showed up=whitchcraft=call their self blocking me from establishment of economically prosperity in the family over my earthly sister CINTAS=similar to her real name=because she helps them and I don't=which confirms after getting back to the bus station=their interferance in African American relationships=Willie's ex girl friend and her new boyfriend=who tried to talk to me first and I turned him down=got in a black cadallac(sp)=???witchcraft=because Willie's ex girlfriend is helping them=they are helping her new boyfriend=who is an ex convict=same as with my earthly sister=they are helping her boyfriend who is an ex drug addict=both of them are helping them=whereas I won't and because I won't they don't help Willie, but the opposite. Also today, when I got to the EEOC=the person who asked the questions woke me up=asked me my age=which made me mad as hell=because for over thirty fucking ass years of putting in applications=the only thing I got to show if documentation of their fucking ass harassment and beling allowed to work 12 fucking ass hours a week=while dumb asses=and I do mean dumb get rewarded for being fucking ass stupid=so for all those out there who have any form of intelligence=especially those with children=don't let them go to the public schools=in fact don't have your child in a hospital=in fact if you can don't even let them know/document the pregancncy=because if they find out that you child has any form of intelligence; they put them on a track to abuse them so that they don't work against them=and for those of you who have intelligence =best to be dumb or at least make them think that you are dumb=sad to say=but the truth=in fact I heard a minister talk about it=said that is how God said it is suppose to be=then as I heard another person say=much given=much required=I always thought that meant that you would be blessed more in all areas=maybe but for African Americans who have much intelligence it only means more harassment=to the point that they keep going through setup after setup after setup after setup, etc. until they get the message=their intelligence in null and void in the white males world and they have no other choice if they want to eat but to get in line and be what they tell you are=prostitute, drug dealer, gay, etc.=all the rest of the setups that if anyone goes to a legal book=in which a person can be found guilty of a crime=all of those=until the person gets it=????? Also this section is for prayer=that prayer be sent up that I get it=to the tune that I can live and eat=hopefully without being a slave=because on the way back from Greensboro=only few on the PART bus=and I am thinking they had TWO PART buses=sort of like they high jacked a bus with me on it before=Pray God will please intervene to show his power,etc.=tired=and that for people such as my sister and Willie's ex girlfriend who help them=which proable means that most of the African American females with mean are helping them=to control their boyfriends and husbands=that God will start punishing the females who and the boyfriends who help them and that God will start rewarding females and their friends/boyfriends who chose to follow God. Peacenowst
Monday, July 16, 2007
Isolation=Form of Imprisonment=Form of Psychological ABUSE=????
7/16/07
Following is a copy of a prayer request posted on Schambach Ministries=in which the crux of the prayer is concerning employment and income; especially concerning the fact that the best job that they are offering to an African American female who graduated with honors-is that of a dish washer=which I have no problem being a dish washer=where I ended up last time I graduated in 1984(Business Administration)=as a dish washer for a local diner=???=if I was white with my mentality there would be no problem=but because I am an African American=who graduated with honors=means that I am thinking the wrong way=if I am not thinking in terms of how to help white males dominate=so that is why there is the modern day dish washer room=in which it is isolated to the extent that IF someone wanted to use fumes in the isolated area (in which people pass through and can see and touch you=but if they are not in the area for a long time and they are using fumes=they may feel slightly sluggish, but may not get the full affect as someone who is confined to the dish room for three or more hours=After I left work=??? notice that my entire walk and mental framework were different=almost slow and sluggish=????=also notice that when I tried to put where I worked at on the United Nations employment site; that the page disappeared and I was not able to get back to their employment page=????=coincidence=???=Also pray concerning a visit that took place on 7/15/07 in which the son and mother were basically happy=knew them from when I was in high school=after the visit I was informed that the son=really the black males that were in that area had chosen the path of my earthly father to make income=even though they have jobs on the side=could say that I don't know why they chose to do that=but as I think about it=yes I do=mostly because of pressure=????so pray for all of them=the mother is a Christian=she had just come back from church=in which she said=she tries to ignore the fakeness and focus on what God wants her to do while there=she also told me to keep the faith=that my time will come=my prayer is that I live to see my time come to declare the glory of the Lord.
Getting back to as one of the head manager's said, The "POSITION" that they found for me as a dish wahser=ISOLATION=technically=open space on one side where people walk up and down isle=but so is a jail ceil=in which when I explained that claustrophobia may be a problem=the head manager that told me that they had found a POSITION for me, said=well you can step out any time you want=insinuating and confirming confinement=????Also in terms of ISOLATION=read when researching the effects of stress=that in relationships that the abuser places the person in ISOLATION FROM THEIR FAMILY AND FRIENDS=in order that they can have control over the person=why they put me in ISOLATION=one of the managers since the first day I started would walk pass me and take her hand and rub on my back, arms, waist=she did that for about two weeks=I thought that she would stop=then one day last week, I went in and was standing at the front and she took her hands and took a longggggg time running her finger across my back=then I turned and followed her and after she talked to some customers, I asked her if she wanted something and then touched her on the shoulders, she laughed and said, no, I was just walking past, and I said oh! thought that you wanted something and we stood there for about two to three minutes going back and forth touching each other on the shoulder=finally she turned and walked away=only to come back about five minutes later and do the same thing=this time off camera=they have cameras at every corner of the restaurant=EXCEPT as I think about it=where the dish room is located=which means=?????as I stated earlier=????I guess I need to start praying=????=which while thinking about it=think I wrote this on one of my other blogs=the system that an abuser uses on a victim is the same system that they=???are using=being that in a one on one relationship=it is easy to identify=and in a situation in which an individual is being abused by them=????unless one knows what to look for they will miss it=but it is the same system=only it is many using an abusive system against one instead of a single individual using an abusive system against another.
I told them thank you=meaning thank you for allowing me to work three hours, the day before I worked two, and the day before=they sent me home and as I began to think about my employment since December of 2006=each place that I have worked has only allowed me to work a total of 12 to 6 hours a week on average=which if I paid attention is just enough hours to go and apply for government assistance=because if you don't have a job=they passed a policy where they will not help a person=further control to force people to do what they say=if you want to eat=or help to eat=you need a job=if you don't do what you are told while on the job ( and I mean when you are told what to do on the job=it may not be related to your job=they may tell you to tell one of your relatives a lie, etc.(example)=or don't associate with one of your family members=????In other words it is no coincidence that all three places have allowed me to work only 12 to 15 hours on average=and even though I have asked for more hours=they ignore me=will not answer me=just keep giving me the 12 to 15 hours a week=while the teenagers=get the positions as shift managers, allowed to work as servers in less than three days (instant money in their pocket=???for thirty plus years=it has sort of been like the test that they kept giving me at the restaurant in which they kept changing the right answers=even if I got the answers right=they marked them wrong and then gave me more right answers, so that they next time I took the test they could mark them wrong=meaning that no matter what I did=they were going to mark it wrong=because they want the PEN=meaning the "ink pen"=meaning the right answer is to stop writing or start writing the lies they want me to tell=but they are late=?????=Anyway sad to KNOW that you live in a country where they send men to die for the same privileges that they are denying an American born citizen=and that the citizens=don't know if they are American born or not=because so many of the people in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who hold major positions are NOT from America, they are foreigners=????lot of them with a GERMAN heritage(sp)=Can someone please tell me=?????????
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7/16/07 Please pray that God will intervene and fix it so that I can get into all three of the email accounts-one of aol; the other on yahoo, and the one at the petition site NOT just the YAHOO email account=YAHOO means stupid; also pray that God will intervene and fix it so that the United Nations will be able to respond to one of the three accounts; I have sent three emails concerning working for them; also pray that God will take me out of isolation at the present job that I am on=they put me in an isolated compartment where the dishes are done and the one of the head managers told me that they had found a position for me=dish washer=controlled finances=not allowed to work as a server making tips=more money=also pray that God will fix it so that I will not feel sluggish after working in small isolated area for three hours and that I will not be able to pick anything royal blue out of my teeth the next day=also pleas pray for young African American male=????who they=???are trying to convince that he is gay=pray that God will intervene and let him know that he is not=also pray that whatever they are training him for=not good=pray that God intervenes=also pray that I live and declare the glory of the Lord as well as pray that I am not sluggish from riding part of the transit system on 6/17/07=one year after being put in jail for no money=they the EEOC gave me an appointment concerning the restaurant on Patterson Avenue that told me that I have to be gay in order to make money=Please pray God's intervention and that God knocks them out of the way prior to my having to deal with them=and that if ANYTHING occurs=that those in charge of the Winston-Salem Transit Authority, etc. are participants=they may not be driving the car, but they are passengers=meaning they are participants=Please continue to pray that God will send me money to eat with so that I do not have to go to their soup kitchens where I know the food has the opposite affect of healing=And please pray God's speedy deliverance, especially concerning income so that I can get some furniture, stove-refrigerator, sofa, dressers, phone service, lights to be on steadily and water leak repaired=also pray that God will reveal how they=??? may be doing things in order that anything that I say may look like my situation is isolated=etc.=example=they had in the paper that they were going to/or thinking about lower utility bill for consumers=???which means that my not being able to pay a low utility bill would make it look as if I am the one with the problem on the surface=but in actuality=if my income is less than utility bill=would mean the same situation=???please pray that the situations relating to utility bills and all other situations that they maybe passing policies in which their goal is to limit my income, etc. is revealed and that God moves them out of my way=also pray my victory.
Peacenowst
Following is a copy of a prayer request posted on Schambach Ministries=in which the crux of the prayer is concerning employment and income; especially concerning the fact that the best job that they are offering to an African American female who graduated with honors-is that of a dish washer=which I have no problem being a dish washer=where I ended up last time I graduated in 1984(Business Administration)=as a dish washer for a local diner=???=if I was white with my mentality there would be no problem=but because I am an African American=who graduated with honors=means that I am thinking the wrong way=if I am not thinking in terms of how to help white males dominate=so that is why there is the modern day dish washer room=in which it is isolated to the extent that IF someone wanted to use fumes in the isolated area (in which people pass through and can see and touch you=but if they are not in the area for a long time and they are using fumes=they may feel slightly sluggish, but may not get the full affect as someone who is confined to the dish room for three or more hours=After I left work=??? notice that my entire walk and mental framework were different=almost slow and sluggish=????=also notice that when I tried to put where I worked at on the United Nations employment site; that the page disappeared and I was not able to get back to their employment page=????=coincidence=???=Also pray concerning a visit that took place on 7/15/07 in which the son and mother were basically happy=knew them from when I was in high school=after the visit I was informed that the son=really the black males that were in that area had chosen the path of my earthly father to make income=even though they have jobs on the side=could say that I don't know why they chose to do that=but as I think about it=yes I do=mostly because of pressure=????so pray for all of them=the mother is a Christian=she had just come back from church=in which she said=she tries to ignore the fakeness and focus on what God wants her to do while there=she also told me to keep the faith=that my time will come=my prayer is that I live to see my time come to declare the glory of the Lord.
Getting back to as one of the head manager's said, The "POSITION" that they found for me as a dish wahser=ISOLATION=technically=open space on one side where people walk up and down isle=but so is a jail ceil=in which when I explained that claustrophobia may be a problem=the head manager that told me that they had found a POSITION for me, said=well you can step out any time you want=insinuating and confirming confinement=????Also in terms of ISOLATION=read when researching the effects of stress=that in relationships that the abuser places the person in ISOLATION FROM THEIR FAMILY AND FRIENDS=in order that they can have control over the person=why they put me in ISOLATION=one of the managers since the first day I started would walk pass me and take her hand and rub on my back, arms, waist=she did that for about two weeks=I thought that she would stop=then one day last week, I went in and was standing at the front and she took her hands and took a longggggg time running her finger across my back=then I turned and followed her and after she talked to some customers, I asked her if she wanted something and then touched her on the shoulders, she laughed and said, no, I was just walking past, and I said oh! thought that you wanted something and we stood there for about two to three minutes going back and forth touching each other on the shoulder=finally she turned and walked away=only to come back about five minutes later and do the same thing=this time off camera=they have cameras at every corner of the restaurant=EXCEPT as I think about it=where the dish room is located=which means=?????as I stated earlier=????I guess I need to start praying=????=which while thinking about it=think I wrote this on one of my other blogs=the system that an abuser uses on a victim is the same system that they=???are using=being that in a one on one relationship=it is easy to identify=and in a situation in which an individual is being abused by them=????unless one knows what to look for they will miss it=but it is the same system=only it is many using an abusive system against one instead of a single individual using an abusive system against another.
I told them thank you=meaning thank you for allowing me to work three hours, the day before I worked two, and the day before=they sent me home and as I began to think about my employment since December of 2006=each place that I have worked has only allowed me to work a total of 12 to 6 hours a week on average=which if I paid attention is just enough hours to go and apply for government assistance=because if you don't have a job=they passed a policy where they will not help a person=further control to force people to do what they say=if you want to eat=or help to eat=you need a job=if you don't do what you are told while on the job ( and I mean when you are told what to do on the job=it may not be related to your job=they may tell you to tell one of your relatives a lie, etc.(example)=or don't associate with one of your family members=????In other words it is no coincidence that all three places have allowed me to work only 12 to 15 hours on average=and even though I have asked for more hours=they ignore me=will not answer me=just keep giving me the 12 to 15 hours a week=while the teenagers=get the positions as shift managers, allowed to work as servers in less than three days (instant money in their pocket=???for thirty plus years=it has sort of been like the test that they kept giving me at the restaurant in which they kept changing the right answers=even if I got the answers right=they marked them wrong and then gave me more right answers, so that they next time I took the test they could mark them wrong=meaning that no matter what I did=they were going to mark it wrong=because they want the PEN=meaning the "ink pen"=meaning the right answer is to stop writing or start writing the lies they want me to tell=but they are late=?????=Anyway sad to KNOW that you live in a country where they send men to die for the same privileges that they are denying an American born citizen=and that the citizens=don't know if they are American born or not=because so many of the people in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who hold major positions are NOT from America, they are foreigners=????lot of them with a GERMAN heritage(sp)=Can someone please tell me=?????????
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7/16/07 Please pray that God will intervene and fix it so that I can get into all three of the email accounts-one of aol; the other on yahoo, and the one at the petition site NOT just the YAHOO email account=YAHOO means stupid; also pray that God will intervene and fix it so that the United Nations will be able to respond to one of the three accounts; I have sent three emails concerning working for them; also pray that God will take me out of isolation at the present job that I am on=they put me in an isolated compartment where the dishes are done and the one of the head managers told me that they had found a position for me=dish washer=controlled finances=not allowed to work as a server making tips=more money=also pray that God will fix it so that I will not feel sluggish after working in small isolated area for three hours and that I will not be able to pick anything royal blue out of my teeth the next day=also pleas pray for young African American male=????who they=???are trying to convince that he is gay=pray that God will intervene and let him know that he is not=also pray that whatever they are training him for=not good=pray that God intervenes=also pray that I live and declare the glory of the Lord as well as pray that I am not sluggish from riding part of the transit system on 6/17/07=one year after being put in jail for no money=they the EEOC gave me an appointment concerning the restaurant on Patterson Avenue that told me that I have to be gay in order to make money=Please pray God's intervention and that God knocks them out of the way prior to my having to deal with them=and that if ANYTHING occurs=that those in charge of the Winston-Salem Transit Authority, etc. are participants=they may not be driving the car, but they are passengers=meaning they are participants=Please continue to pray that God will send me money to eat with so that I do not have to go to their soup kitchens where I know the food has the opposite affect of healing=And please pray God's speedy deliverance, especially concerning income so that I can get some furniture, stove-refrigerator, sofa, dressers, phone service, lights to be on steadily and water leak repaired=also pray that God will reveal how they=??? may be doing things in order that anything that I say may look like my situation is isolated=etc.=example=they had in the paper that they were going to/or thinking about lower utility bill for consumers=???which means that my not being able to pay a low utility bill would make it look as if I am the one with the problem on the surface=but in actuality=if my income is less than utility bill=would mean the same situation=???please pray that the situations relating to utility bills and all other situations that they maybe passing policies in which their goal is to limit my income, etc. is revealed and that God moves them out of my way=also pray my victory.
Peacenowst
Thursday, July 12, 2007
OUtside Communications???????????????
7/12/07 This is a continuation of the prayer request #37138= in which there were having a summer camp program and I was informed that I couldn't use the community recreation center computers=also the public library's comuter system has been donw for two day=???=including their public telephone has a out of order sign on it=(only working phone in area=NO OUTSIDE COMMUNICATION=???=They shut down the computers about ten minutes after I opend a yahoo email account on the only computer that is reserved for government research only=????since then (two days)=the computers have been down=the email was opened so that I could send an email to those concerned=concerning store clerk on the corner of 5th and Broad who was assisting white males in trapping African American females in prostitution; but then after I left the Employment security Commission and a storm was coming instead of standing in the storm; I went to the Shell service station to wait for the bus at 1st and Broad and again the same thing=twice in a day=????this time while waiting for the bus=white males came outside the service station as soon as I stood under the roof of the service station in front of the door; then along with other people coming and going=another white male was going to walk in front of me and I moved so as not to be incircled (spirit realm)=and I looked up and as soon as I moved=sirens and lights started from from accoss the street=???=which makes me wonder=????how many females go to jail for not being a prostitute=I called the "Focus on the FAmily MInistry" and requested prayer that I don't have to go to jail for NOT being a prostitute=??? Also continuing from prayer #37138 in which I was requesting prayer that my earthly sister could assist me=on the page of the Winston-Salem Journal=they are featuring a series=http://www.journalnow.com/servlet/Satellite?pagename=WSJ/Page/WSJ_SectionFront&c=Page&cid=1031783689910 (address of the Winston-Salem Journal in which I tried to locate the article about zack Reynolds being killed, but as you can see=if you can get to it=they have taken off the top story=so that there is not one=the top story should have been about Zack Reynolds being murdered and the fact that it would be a series=they took it out=????)=even tried their archives and there is nothing with the headlines about Zack Reynolds murder=????maybe they just ran off a newspaper to place where they knew that I would be standing because since I don't have money for the newspapers, I will read the headlines=????)=I FOUND IT=i KEPT TRYING until I located the article=extremely complicated =but it was located at http://www.journalnow.com/servlet/Satellite?pagename=WSJ/MGArticle/WSJ_BasicArticle&c=MGArticle&cid=1173351925244 and after the article="The Mysterious Death of Z. Smith Reynolds" after I think about it and the fact that they had on the news on my television= they they were closing the Reynolda road=???=because that is the road that my earthly sister would have to drive down every day to work=??=their way of a type of mind control=have wrote about it on my blog before=but after thinking about the article=don't know if it is to make my earthly siter through their silent communication system=discourage her from helping me or threatening to harm zack=young white male that grew up with my nephew=sort of like one of the family=also their way of communicating to my earthly sister that she and my nephew have white priveledges=that zack may be hurt if she doesn't cooperate/or not help me=???but know that it is one of them=someone may say=ignore them=but it is extremely difficult when they have communicated what they will do on too many occassions and it occurs for you to ignore them. So please pray that my earthly sister is delivered from their mind control while she is still alllowed to earn a living=while also praying that God will intervene and fix it so that I can start earning a living without being punished and harassed; and also that they will put back up the WHITE FENCE in front of my earthly sister's place=they took it down to signify that her white priveledges were in jepody(sp) because she has given me some food= in this city they don't like relatives helping other relatives! Also please pray concerningthe issue of my and Willie's relationship=that they stop punishing him=he asked to work in the mornings=they have not allowed him to=if he worked in the mornings it would be easier on his health=I have did research and know that if a person works the hours of eight am to five pm; their system heals better and a person stays healthier longer=why they don't want me working a 8 to 5 job=the Winston-Salem Journal also had an article about two days ago=about a misfit marriage=their way of letting the local leaders know who know about our relationship that they are suppose to stop our relationship=the name of the article="A Flawed Marriage Takes Center Stage"=meaning that I will not help them as the African American female= and also that they are to pay attention to the relationship=CENTER STAGE= even to the point that the issue took a nationial turn=letting national leaders know=they used the issue of story of a female student who wrote "I love tyler(?)=??? whaterver her boyfriend's name was=and then they dismissed the girl and banned her from reuglar school because she wrote on a wall=the issue is not that she wrote on a wall the issue is that sombebody does not want them to have a relationship=because either the father or the mother will not cooperate with something that they=???want them to do=for example after decades or running into a male friend of mine who wanted to be a long term boyfriend who kept telling me that I was suppose to be his wife=everytime I saw him=he would tell me I am suppose to be his wife=and this last time, because of issue with Willie, I get it=they did him the way that they are doing me and Willie and after I thought about it some more and especially after yesterday when I was at the Employment Security Commission and a lady asked who wanted to a person who had the same last name the guy I was suppose to marry=at first I just sat there and then it dawned on me that they had the same name as he did; but I had never seen her only heard her name=so I went to the door and I spoke and asked her if she had married him=and she said yes=I turned and walked away=long story short=but it dawned on me that they had did the same thing with me and him=they used mind control /force=etc. to make people date, etc. other people=I know he figured it out later on; he was trying to tell me but didn't know how to word it so he wouldn't sound stupid=so pray that God will fix it so that Willie and I as well as the young girl on television who they are trying to put out of school and her boyfriend will become a couple over their dam demonic system and that God will intervene so that those who are helping their system will be blessed. And as I am thinking about it=the issue about zack reynolds murdered=???may be them using mind control to tell my earthly sister of what I might do because she knows that I know that they intentionally block my finances so that she will appear to be the one in the family to follow=that really is upsetting to know that they=??? block a person blessings while they help the other person that is suppose to earn less and everybody knows it=so if you think aboout it=it would make a person extremely mad=and they have been waiting and expecting me to do something=?????=so they must be figuring that since I haven't done anything in the public=I will probably try to do something to one of my family members who is and has helped them to block me out of my finances=?????thanks for your prayers and may peace and prosperity be within thy walls. Peacenowst =???http://www.journalnow.com/servlet/Satellite?pagename=WSJ/MGArticle/WSJ_BasicArticle&c=MGArticle&cid=1173351945166
