Monday, July 16, 2007
Isolation=Form of Imprisonment=Form of Psychological ABUSE=????
7/16/07
Following is a copy of a prayer request posted on Schambach Ministries=in which the crux of the prayer is concerning employment and income; especially concerning the fact that the best job that they are offering to an African American female who graduated with honors-is that of a dish washer=which I have no problem being a dish washer=where I ended up last time I graduated in 1984(Business Administration)=as a dish washer for a local diner=???=if I was white with my mentality there would be no problem=but because I am an African American=who graduated with honors=means that I am thinking the wrong way=if I am not thinking in terms of how to help white males dominate=so that is why there is the modern day dish washer room=in which it is isolated to the extent that IF someone wanted to use fumes in the isolated area (in which people pass through and can see and touch you=but if they are not in the area for a long time and they are using fumes=they may feel slightly sluggish, but may not get the full affect as someone who is confined to the dish room for three or more hours=After I left work=??? notice that my entire walk and mental framework were different=almost slow and sluggish=????=also notice that when I tried to put where I worked at on the United Nations employment site; that the page disappeared and I was not able to get back to their employment page=????=coincidence=???=Also pray concerning a visit that took place on 7/15/07 in which the son and mother were basically happy=knew them from when I was in high school=after the visit I was informed that the son=really the black males that were in that area had chosen the path of my earthly father to make income=even though they have jobs on the side=could say that I don't know why they chose to do that=but as I think about it=yes I do=mostly because of pressure=????so pray for all of them=the mother is a Christian=she had just come back from church=in which she said=she tries to ignore the fakeness and focus on what God wants her to do while there=she also told me to keep the faith=that my time will come=my prayer is that I live to see my time come to declare the glory of the Lord.
Getting back to as one of the head manager's said, The "POSITION" that they found for me as a dish wahser=ISOLATION=technically=open space on one side where people walk up and down isle=but so is a jail ceil=in which when I explained that claustrophobia may be a problem=the head manager that told me that they had found a POSITION for me, said=well you can step out any time you want=insinuating and confirming confinement=????Also in terms of ISOLATION=read when researching the effects of stress=that in relationships that the abuser places the person in ISOLATION FROM THEIR FAMILY AND FRIENDS=in order that they can have control over the person=why they put me in ISOLATION=one of the managers since the first day I started would walk pass me and take her hand and rub on my back, arms, waist=she did that for about two weeks=I thought that she would stop=then one day last week, I went in and was standing at the front and she took her hands and took a longggggg time running her finger across my back=then I turned and followed her and after she talked to some customers, I asked her if she wanted something and then touched her on the shoulders, she laughed and said, no, I was just walking past, and I said oh! thought that you wanted something and we stood there for about two to three minutes going back and forth touching each other on the shoulder=finally she turned and walked away=only to come back about five minutes later and do the same thing=this time off camera=they have cameras at every corner of the restaurant=EXCEPT as I think about it=where the dish room is located=which means=?????as I stated earlier=????I guess I need to start praying=????=which while thinking about it=think I wrote this on one of my other blogs=the system that an abuser uses on a victim is the same system that they=???are using=being that in a one on one relationship=it is easy to identify=and in a situation in which an individual is being abused by them=????unless one knows what to look for they will miss it=but it is the same system=only it is many using an abusive system against one instead of a single individual using an abusive system against another.
I told them thank you=meaning thank you for allowing me to work three hours, the day before I worked two, and the day before=they sent me home and as I began to think about my employment since December of 2006=each place that I have worked has only allowed me to work a total of 12 to 6 hours a week on average=which if I paid attention is just enough hours to go and apply for government assistance=because if you don't have a job=they passed a policy where they will not help a person=further control to force people to do what they say=if you want to eat=or help to eat=you need a job=if you don't do what you are told while on the job ( and I mean when you are told what to do on the job=it may not be related to your job=they may tell you to tell one of your relatives a lie, etc.(example)=or don't associate with one of your family members=????In other words it is no coincidence that all three places have allowed me to work only 12 to 15 hours on average=and even though I have asked for more hours=they ignore me=will not answer me=just keep giving me the 12 to 15 hours a week=while the teenagers=get the positions as shift managers, allowed to work as servers in less than three days (instant money in their pocket=???for thirty plus years=it has sort of been like the test that they kept giving me at the restaurant in which they kept changing the right answers=even if I got the answers right=they marked them wrong and then gave me more right answers, so that they next time I took the test they could mark them wrong=meaning that no matter what I did=they were going to mark it wrong=because they want the PEN=meaning the "ink pen"=meaning the right answer is to stop writing or start writing the lies they want me to tell=but they are late=?????=Anyway sad to KNOW that you live in a country where they send men to die for the same privileges that they are denying an American born citizen=and that the citizens=don't know if they are American born or not=because so many of the people in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who hold major positions are NOT from America, they are foreigners=????lot of them with a GERMAN heritage(sp)=Can someone please tell me=?????????
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7/16/07 Please pray that God will intervene and fix it so that I can get into all three of the email accounts-one of aol; the other on yahoo, and the one at the petition site NOT just the YAHOO email account=YAHOO means stupid; also pray that God will intervene and fix it so that the United Nations will be able to respond to one of the three accounts; I have sent three emails concerning working for them; also pray that God will take me out of isolation at the present job that I am on=they put me in an isolated compartment where the dishes are done and the one of the head managers told me that they had found a position for me=dish washer=controlled finances=not allowed to work as a server making tips=more money=also pray that God will fix it so that I will not feel sluggish after working in small isolated area for three hours and that I will not be able to pick anything royal blue out of my teeth the next day=also pleas pray for young African American male=????who they=???are trying to convince that he is gay=pray that God will intervene and let him know that he is not=also pray that whatever they are training him for=not good=pray that God intervenes=also pray that I live and declare the glory of the Lord as well as pray that I am not sluggish from riding part of the transit system on 6/17/07=one year after being put in jail for no money=they the EEOC gave me an appointment concerning the restaurant on Patterson Avenue that told me that I have to be gay in order to make money=Please pray God's intervention and that God knocks them out of the way prior to my having to deal with them=and that if ANYTHING occurs=that those in charge of the Winston-Salem Transit Authority, etc. are participants=they may not be driving the car, but they are passengers=meaning they are participants=Please continue to pray that God will send me money to eat with so that I do not have to go to their soup kitchens where I know the food has the opposite affect of healing=And please pray God's speedy deliverance, especially concerning income so that I can get some furniture, stove-refrigerator, sofa, dressers, phone service, lights to be on steadily and water leak repaired=also pray that God will reveal how they=??? may be doing things in order that anything that I say may look like my situation is isolated=etc.=example=they had in the paper that they were going to/or thinking about lower utility bill for consumers=???which means that my not being able to pay a low utility bill would make it look as if I am the one with the problem on the surface=but in actuality=if my income is less than utility bill=would mean the same situation=???please pray that the situations relating to utility bills and all other situations that they maybe passing policies in which their goal is to limit my income, etc. is revealed and that God moves them out of my way=also pray my victory.
Peacenowst
Following is a copy of a prayer request posted on Schambach Ministries=in which the crux of the prayer is concerning employment and income; especially concerning the fact that the best job that they are offering to an African American female who graduated with honors-is that of a dish washer=which I have no problem being a dish washer=where I ended up last time I graduated in 1984(Business Administration)=as a dish washer for a local diner=???=if I was white with my mentality there would be no problem=but because I am an African American=who graduated with honors=means that I am thinking the wrong way=if I am not thinking in terms of how to help white males dominate=so that is why there is the modern day dish washer room=in which it is isolated to the extent that IF someone wanted to use fumes in the isolated area (in which people pass through and can see and touch you=but if they are not in the area for a long time and they are using fumes=they may feel slightly sluggish, but may not get the full affect as someone who is confined to the dish room for three or more hours=After I left work=??? notice that my entire walk and mental framework were different=almost slow and sluggish=????=also notice that when I tried to put where I worked at on the United Nations employment site; that the page disappeared and I was not able to get back to their employment page=????=coincidence=???=Also pray concerning a visit that took place on 7/15/07 in which the son and mother were basically happy=knew them from when I was in high school=after the visit I was informed that the son=really the black males that were in that area had chosen the path of my earthly father to make income=even though they have jobs on the side=could say that I don't know why they chose to do that=but as I think about it=yes I do=mostly because of pressure=????so pray for all of them=the mother is a Christian=she had just come back from church=in which she said=she tries to ignore the fakeness and focus on what God wants her to do while there=she also told me to keep the faith=that my time will come=my prayer is that I live to see my time come to declare the glory of the Lord.
Getting back to as one of the head manager's said, The "POSITION" that they found for me as a dish wahser=ISOLATION=technically=open space on one side where people walk up and down isle=but so is a jail ceil=in which when I explained that claustrophobia may be a problem=the head manager that told me that they had found a POSITION for me, said=well you can step out any time you want=insinuating and confirming confinement=????Also in terms of ISOLATION=read when researching the effects of stress=that in relationships that the abuser places the person in ISOLATION FROM THEIR FAMILY AND FRIENDS=in order that they can have control over the person=why they put me in ISOLATION=one of the managers since the first day I started would walk pass me and take her hand and rub on my back, arms, waist=she did that for about two weeks=I thought that she would stop=then one day last week, I went in and was standing at the front and she took her hands and took a longggggg time running her finger across my back=then I turned and followed her and after she talked to some customers, I asked her if she wanted something and then touched her on the shoulders, she laughed and said, no, I was just walking past, and I said oh! thought that you wanted something and we stood there for about two to three minutes going back and forth touching each other on the shoulder=finally she turned and walked away=only to come back about five minutes later and do the same thing=this time off camera=they have cameras at every corner of the restaurant=EXCEPT as I think about it=where the dish room is located=which means=?????as I stated earlier=????I guess I need to start praying=????=which while thinking about it=think I wrote this on one of my other blogs=the system that an abuser uses on a victim is the same system that they=???are using=being that in a one on one relationship=it is easy to identify=and in a situation in which an individual is being abused by them=????unless one knows what to look for they will miss it=but it is the same system=only it is many using an abusive system against one instead of a single individual using an abusive system against another.
I told them thank you=meaning thank you for allowing me to work three hours, the day before I worked two, and the day before=they sent me home and as I began to think about my employment since December of 2006=each place that I have worked has only allowed me to work a total of 12 to 6 hours a week on average=which if I paid attention is just enough hours to go and apply for government assistance=because if you don't have a job=they passed a policy where they will not help a person=further control to force people to do what they say=if you want to eat=or help to eat=you need a job=if you don't do what you are told while on the job ( and I mean when you are told what to do on the job=it may not be related to your job=they may tell you to tell one of your relatives a lie, etc.(example)=or don't associate with one of your family members=????In other words it is no coincidence that all three places have allowed me to work only 12 to 15 hours on average=and even though I have asked for more hours=they ignore me=will not answer me=just keep giving me the 12 to 15 hours a week=while the teenagers=get the positions as shift managers, allowed to work as servers in less than three days (instant money in their pocket=???for thirty plus years=it has sort of been like the test that they kept giving me at the restaurant in which they kept changing the right answers=even if I got the answers right=they marked them wrong and then gave me more right answers, so that they next time I took the test they could mark them wrong=meaning that no matter what I did=they were going to mark it wrong=because they want the PEN=meaning the "ink pen"=meaning the right answer is to stop writing or start writing the lies they want me to tell=but they are late=?????=Anyway sad to KNOW that you live in a country where they send men to die for the same privileges that they are denying an American born citizen=and that the citizens=don't know if they are American born or not=because so many of the people in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who hold major positions are NOT from America, they are foreigners=????lot of them with a GERMAN heritage(sp)=Can someone please tell me=?????????
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7/16/07 Please pray that God will intervene and fix it so that I can get into all three of the email accounts-one of aol; the other on yahoo, and the one at the petition site NOT just the YAHOO email account=YAHOO means stupid; also pray that God will intervene and fix it so that the United Nations will be able to respond to one of the three accounts; I have sent three emails concerning working for them; also pray that God will take me out of isolation at the present job that I am on=they put me in an isolated compartment where the dishes are done and the one of the head managers told me that they had found a position for me=dish washer=controlled finances=not allowed to work as a server making tips=more money=also pray that God will fix it so that I will not feel sluggish after working in small isolated area for three hours and that I will not be able to pick anything royal blue out of my teeth the next day=also pleas pray for young African American male=????who they=???are trying to convince that he is gay=pray that God will intervene and let him know that he is not=also pray that whatever they are training him for=not good=pray that God intervenes=also pray that I live and declare the glory of the Lord as well as pray that I am not sluggish from riding part of the transit system on 6/17/07=one year after being put in jail for no money=they the EEOC gave me an appointment concerning the restaurant on Patterson Avenue that told me that I have to be gay in order to make money=Please pray God's intervention and that God knocks them out of the way prior to my having to deal with them=and that if ANYTHING occurs=that those in charge of the Winston-Salem Transit Authority, etc. are participants=they may not be driving the car, but they are passengers=meaning they are participants=Please continue to pray that God will send me money to eat with so that I do not have to go to their soup kitchens where I know the food has the opposite affect of healing=And please pray God's speedy deliverance, especially concerning income so that I can get some furniture, stove-refrigerator, sofa, dressers, phone service, lights to be on steadily and water leak repaired=also pray that God will reveal how they=??? may be doing things in order that anything that I say may look like my situation is isolated=etc.=example=they had in the paper that they were going to/or thinking about lower utility bill for consumers=???which means that my not being able to pay a low utility bill would make it look as if I am the one with the problem on the surface=but in actuality=if my income is less than utility bill=would mean the same situation=???please pray that the situations relating to utility bills and all other situations that they maybe passing policies in which their goal is to limit my income, etc. is revealed and that God moves them out of my way=also pray my victory.
Peacenowst
