Monday, July 30, 2007
Extreme Makeovers=????????????????????????
Saw on television on 7/29/07, program about extreme makeovers in which there was an African American female with children that all were given a new house with their own rooms each with a different theme. After it went off, my thoughts were, “Well why don’t I try that=for over forty years I have been trying to get employment in this dam city and nothing; so why don’t I apply to have an extreme makeover, I qualify with a house with no furniture, food, stove, refrigerator, barely keep the lights on=thank you Lord; pray about the water=don’t have any money to fix the questionable water leak=????
So went on website www.abettercommunity.com in which they asked for volunteers=would rather be a volunteer=reality says ask for help=so I looked for qualifications to get help with a house and they are as follows:
"Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."
Remember when I wrote on my blog that they were trying to make me homeless=???even though I was part owner in a house, and my family was doing repairs to the house when I was out of it; as soon as I moved back in the house=they stopped doing repair work on the house; then I met the minister who I heard on the radio that gives away food, clothes, shoes, furniture, etc.=in which thank God he did give me some food to tide me over and he did give me work in the church office for a minute=in which I observed him continuously repairing furniture, giving food and clothes away, etc.. It was even promised after the minister saw the house, because he use to have a remodeling company, that he would help me to repair the house and then help me to put furniture in the house.
As I observed him giving furniture away to other people; I asked when he was going to help me=long story short=the answers were excuses not to help me=????even though I knew he was doing the best he could=he and his wife are good people with good hearts=because of gift I knew that they were dealing with the demons and were trying to hear from God=meaning that in order for him to my pastor=he has to know what demons I have overcome=in order to lead me=therefore, after I joined the church, he stayed in spiritual warfare; in which to tell someone what he has experienced, nobody would=correction=there are some people that do understand and know about some of the situations in which God showed me how to overcome.
Which still brings me back to this point; first my income and second the house with no furniture, etc.=as stated by the Exteme Makeover website=
” Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.“
My income=which has been at $2,000.00 per year on average=even with two degrees=can’t make people hire me or stop them from interfering with my trying to make an income on my own=”One lady said that she would get up every day and just pester them=told her that I had did that=applied with Wachovia for over thirteen years=to find out that they had hired an African American female to keep out other African Americans=heard it on the news or some people talking about it=remember saying to myself=well that’s why I got no return phone calls after thirteen years=in fact that is what they still have in the city of Winston-Salem, now they are using Hispanics as well as African Americans=who is going to stop them=in which the real problem comes when people realize what is going on and try to earn money on their on=but when they do they are punished and attacked if they try to earn their own income or if any of their family members try to help them=because for every person that is stopped from making their own money=somebody has to supply them with money from somewhere=if they just utterly refuse to go to any type of social service; then they are forced into other activities in which would be consider to be illegal; prostitution, drugs, etc.,or they have to be gay to earn their money or they are classified as mentally ill=meaning that for the most part in regards to my earning an adequate income, etc. the circumstances ARE beyond my control; not God’s but mine=I do not have the resources to combat an established century old system of blocking African Americans out of the economic mainstream for no other evident reason than that they love their own people.
For every time a family member helps another family member that means that the
organized organizations lose money because they don't get to make the millions of dollars off of an individual= for example, my earthly father was in prison for thirty five years=which means that for thrity five years somebody was paid to cloth and feed him and if we went to visit him, it was not good; not to mention the other two to three years of his life while he was on the outside; then they made money on him through experimentation,etc=all the way up to the end of his physical life in which the people at hospice were making money off of him=Why they have tried to put me on a path to ill health=handicapped,etc.=they want to make money off of me=So based upon extreme makeovers website=I do qualify and being that the computer lab is getting ready to close, I will continue, Lord willing tommorrow,
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7/30/07
Change of mind=came to the public library on 5th street=as I was writing=the other part is that to verify my statement about the fact that organized organizations stand in line first to make money off of who try to deal with things beyond their control, the Extreme Makeover website aslo states="
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."=meaning that inorder to qualify, social services=an organized organizations has to refer you=and in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina, if you do not have a JOB=they don't give a person help=therefore they do not qualify for other assistance=which if a person thinks about it, is backwards, not unless they really think about it=in which is makes a lot of sense; especially if you want to block certain individuals from receiving any type of help=which means they will have no other choice than to participate in illegal activities=???????To give examples=my nephew (whose mother is helping them) took a day off from work=becuase his employers(temporary agency) were trying to make him work 12 hours a day for seven days a week=until he goes back to college=I have been trying for over thirty plus years to work overtime in this city=has not happen=when I heard where they are making overtime= and applied=if I was lucky to get on and start working=they ALWAYS STOP the overtime=NOT COINCIDENTIAL=????which means that SOMEBODY???????????
The fact that "a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency" really presents a problem, because in the city of Winston=-Salem, North Carolina, most of the people including myself=have recieved help from the organized organizations but it has not helped the person to move beyond their temporary situation or transform their lives;but the opposite, kept them in the same situation or made things worse. Or maybe I should say it's like the medicine they give people now; on the one hand the head ache may be cured; but on the other hand the medicine gave them high blood pressure as a side effect of the medicine. For example, the food stamps helped them stay alive; but because they recieved the food stamps their name goes on a list that is passed from organization to organization, so that each organization can make money off of them; therefore, their employment,etc. opportunities are almost null and void because they become meat to the vultures. For the people who recieve the services to actually transform their lives, it means that the organized organization wouldn't have any clients/customers=as I was using their services, I use to say, something isn't right=???then finally I figured it out=10% of African Americans who go through their system and pass their what I call (in house nigger test=meaning they would sell their own people out)=either through mind control=being forced=???? (my earthly sister) or their own decision to be=????they=???allow that ten % to get jobs and get off of their organized organizations system=everybody else is left to figure out how to survive being passed back and forth between their organized organization system=for those who don't figure it out=they end up with some type of handicap, illness; therefore, off to the doctors they go (where they use them to make more money) and all the time the person is thinking=something is not quite right=why am I going through this=for those who do figure out part of it=they manage to get through hungry spells, no water, lights, food, etc. and some through a miracle, such as the African Americans on the Extreme Makeover television show in which they got a new house with their dream rooms.
Which brings me to this point; guess I (sent my name to the Extreme Makeover show and their response was that someone would look at my question and get back to me= that I can at least if I get seleceted I will look, like I'm moving forward in life, but then again don't know because I am not and have worked overtime not to be connected to one of the social agencie and one of Extreme Makeovers criteeria is
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a CHARITY must provide SOCIAL SERVICES that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency.
Please don't think that I think that I am too good; have been there did that=the key word in all of the statement above by Extreme Makeover is "enable families and indiviuals to move beyond their temporary situation"; the social agencies that I have encountered do not enable a family or person to move beyond their temporary situation; they enable them to stay in their temporary situation or to move to the next temporary situation.Go to any true African American community in which they are an American born citizen (except Katrina survivors)and ask them how long they have been living in their apartment/house, community; or even better ask them how long they have been on the temporary social service program,most of them will give the response that they have been off and on the local social service programs=why?????=because the local social service programs(and probably in other locations)are intended to KEEP the person from coming out of their temporary situation=because if the person came out of their temporary situation, two things would occur:first the people at the social service agency would NOT have a job; and second they would become in the social service,etc. mind=competitors=????
At the present moment, do not know how I will eat; don't want food stamps=need
foodstamps but know that if I(maybe not somebody else, but if I go and get them=THEY=???will put me on the list to continously stay on food stamps by not allowing me to make but a certain amount of income; For example, applied to work as a server=was put in the dish room=female by the name of Lisa (Caucasion(sp)) started about a two weeks after I started=she trained for two to three days and was on the floor making money=asked her how were her tips, etc.. she said with the 3.15 an hour and tips, she was making at least $200.00 a week=800.00 month, whereas they put me in the dish room making 6.50 an hour, but this week end only worked about 10 to twelve hours=65.00 week=if lucky=average every two weeks has been 89.00=176.00 month=when I have asked why can't I be a server; never given an answer; just passed from one person to the next; Now a lot of the teenagers at the restruarant, talk about Lisa; that she is slow, etc. and how she drives them up a wall, especially with her whining;and they can't figure out why she is working over some of the other more personable(sp) and better servers=answer=Lisa was the name of the person who was the manager at the local factory that I worked at that allowed hispanics to commit psychological torture on me for over two years; Lisa represents or is symbolic for that spirit(organizations,etc.) gaining victory of their illegal activity in my life=meaning that before they can do something in the natural realm, first they have to do it in the spirit realm=If they intend to steal/block avenues for me to compensated or intend to take money from me so that they make more money,etc.=then first they have to do it in the spirt realm=why LISA was hired after I was, put on the floor as a server and they put me in the dish room; as a server (suppose to be more prestegious) in a restruarant vs working in a dish room)=to them it means that if they do it in the spirit realm; they can do it in the natural realm=guess they can if=????except=?????
When growing up in middle school; started a business because there was very little money becaue my earthly father was in prison, so God gve me the idea to start selling popcorn and candy apples=every night I would make candy applesa nd pop popcorn, bag them and take them to school, the first time I went to school, remember, that I was a little nervous, for a lot of reasons; to make a long story short, the first day, I sold everything, I was happy; tried it the next day and I was even happier= my classmates started putting in orders so that the candy apples and popcorn were sold before I got to school the next day. I continued to sell candy apples and popcorn for a long time=to the point that my earthly mother=who I had asked to keep my money=was taking it and using it to feed, cloth and pay bills, but I didn't know it; but I was keeping up with how much I should have=so when I asked her for my money because I wanted to buy something; she informed me that she didn't have the money; that she had spent the money for food, and to pay bills. AT first the situation was a little strained, but knowing the situation, I understood, but think that may have been the reason that I stopped; POint is that on the news heard of a little girl who had a lemonade stand and had raised over $2000.00 over the summer at her lemonade stand=she was in the news because everybody was so pround of her, etc.=thought to myself and people think that someone who graduated with honors, don't have sense enough to come up with a legal product and sell it; even if it is lemonade, candy apples or popcorn.
The problem, for those of you who have no clue=is that first the little girl that was on the news=was (Caucasion) (sp);second think I have said this numerous times on various blogs=African Americans are not allowed to earn income/money=UNLESS=they have agreed to work for Caucasion males(sp)= or they are considered competitor=most African Americans born in the United States do not have a clue. For example, over the weekend, there was a story about a reporter by the name of Brown who was doing a story on a bakery. The story on CNN said that he was shot because somebody did not like the story he was doing. My condolences (sp) to the family. What people really should have paid attention to was the fact that they said on CNN, that the person who was in charge of the bakery at the time whose primary goal was to create JOBS for the African American youth, had been put in jail. Guarantee that the person in charge of the bakery(black male) did not have any idea that he was committing any type of crime by trying to create JOBS for the African American youth=at the url address for CNN, http://www.detnews.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070805/METRO/708050340
Jason Dearen / Associated Press/CNN wrote=" The Bakery's founder, Dr. Yusuf Bey, who opened his doors nearly 40 years ago hoping to inspire Oakland's poor to become "respectable and productive individuals." and "Pledging to empower the city's black community, Bey began selling bean and carrot pies"= Point is that there was a desire to provide economic development in the African American community=result=the African American male was put in confinement=????have not followed the complete story; only the fact that the person in charge of the bakery was trying to produce JOBS for African American youth and he ended up in confinement=(gift working)=along with the fact that the main issue in my life has been=being blocked out of a job=if a person has been blocked out of a job for over thirty years; they KNOW when others are being kept out of jobs as well as the fronts,etc. =Point=African Americans do not have the options to start a LEGAL lemonade stand in their community=let alone African American males,etc. UNLESS they want to be like the black male who ended up being put in confinement=??????
Since working in the dish room, what I have found out it that there are a lot of African American females in the dish room=use to be African American males=????=Back to LISA=as I was saying LISA was the name of the African American female supervisor that ignored what the hispanics were doing to me (one of the few times that I have been allowed to work over two years)=how LISA kept her job (paid to ignore what the hispanics were doing to me)=in fact that was her job=to act as cover for their illegal activity when they did something to another African American=so a lot of times when one sees two African Americans at odds with each other; one is usually getting paid to cover for usually Caucasion (sp) male system.
Still talking about social services=there was a story entitled "Where is Molly?" on CNN. The story was about a Caucasion male who had a sister that he use to play with when he was a child; but for somereason she was taken from him and when he question his mother or father about his sister, "Molly" he was told that he could not see her and punished when he questioned them; so he never mention his sister again until his mother and father passed; then he started searching for her. He finanlly found her through a file his father had kept and he located her social security number, which lead him to a state hospital for retarded people=which they had closed because of the ill treatment of the people that stayed there. Long story short the man found his sister located in a group home, doing good. From there he became her legal gurardian, and looked forward to taking care of his sister= which really makes me happy for Molly and sad for me=because on the flip side=my brother and sister who were the mentally and socially challenged ones in the family are the ones who have been allowed to progress in life=lead/make money=while on the other hand, myself being classified as a genius have been abused, denied opportunity, etc.punished because I can think=problem=I was thinking like a FREE person; thinking everybody was born equal at least by law if nothing else=wrong; which means that while "Molly" is searched for to be helped, my family members because they are told what to think=are trying to clssify me as koo koo; my sister goes out of her way to help hispanics=(called a local school to complain about the treatment of a hispanic female that she didn't know=but was TOLD to do so=through their silent communication sytem (I call it mind control)but not once=KNOWING what they are doing to me=have spoken to one person, have not once went to one of the thousands of dam situations and confronted them for what they are doing to me=???? (excuse me she did once=went with me over to Winston-Salem State University=and was probably told not to do it again=because she didn't=not to mention that my earthly brother=the one that everone said was slow=whose made the most money in the family=with nothing to show for it=is the one that they have allowed to be around me=???? no ones knows how insulting it is to have a dam stupid ass look at you like he knows something when you know his thinking is ass backwards=excuse when you know that he's operating under mind control=that is scary=if they don't tell them to think it=they don't know what to think=????=IN other words="Molly" white female=retarded=allowed to be connected with her family or I should say her brother=also on the news program they said that their parents were told that they should not keep a retarded child at home whereas myself being a genius, seeking steady work for over three decades, harassed daily, etc.=punished for being an African American or being an competitor(??????) have been treated as if retarded (know that it is not normal to go through all the shit I have gone through without going off=like I said thought that I was born free and the systems in this country would work=)=do know that if a person is constantly tormented and abused, they will become retarded or worse=because it demeans a person takes away their humanistic nature(makes them a thing)=as someone says, it makes the person numb after they have gone through so much, so it becomes difficult for them to react like a normal person=BUT/NAD I have a feeling that a lot of African Americans who should be classified as genius are being turned into retarded ass ?????=all with their families help because in the United States of America African American families are not allowed to help/care for each other,. because then that would mean that social service does not get to make money off of them.
Now someone and God keeps telling me/and I keep asking about=proof that African Americans are punished if they try to help their own race=GOD said, "Tell them this"=If anyone who reads this (hopefully before it is too late=figured out that they read my blog; then make corrections so it looks as if I don't know what I am talking about) would go to any parking lot that they can see from a two story or higher=makesure that the parking lot is empty=look down at the parking lot and what you will see=because everything that is done in the dark, shall come to light=is a parking lot that looks like domino's=and I say domino's because where there should be clean parking spaces, the parking spaces have a lot of black spots=why does the parking lot have a lot of black spots=because all of the cars have leaks=why do all the cars have leaks=because the cars are made in the factory to have the oil leaks, which lead to other problems related to lack of oil/oil leaks in a car=Everytime a car gets leak that means that the oil company where the motor oil is made=gets money, the machanic who does the repair gets money, the people who make the parts for problems related to oil leaks in cars gets money,etcc., people in the automobil industry probably know who else get paid=And you can go to ANY city and find that there are parking lots in which the parkings spaces all have MAJOR oil stains where cars have parked and the oil has leaked out=as much money that they spend on research, etc. and they can't stop an oil leak=???in fact as I think about it=oil companies that product motor oil for cars would be a good investment=??????God said EVRYTHING that they have or will do in terms will come to light=meaning that the situation with the cars is evident=and if you shuld happen to see a all of a SUDDEN increase in the people/companies that wash parking lots=you know they have read this blog.
To myself, talking about the oil spots on parking lots, is proof that something major is going on with cars having oil leaks, in terms of it being proof that African Americans are punished for helping their family members=????=but if God said write it=then somehow it will lead to the proof=And while I am thinking about it, one of the ways, is to go to any African American born females house in which they have not agreed to punish their relatives and you will find that they are not allowed to have their male family members help them in or around their house. For example, being that my income levels dictates that my meals are once a day, if lucky; my energy level does not allow me to genreate the energy necessary to cut the hedges and bushes in the yard=which I use to do=because when I tried to get some of the young African American males and females (children) about fifteen years ago to help me in the yard; after they helped me for about a month=they were moved=mother and children=they were struggling real bad, and I was trying to help them as much as possible, while they were helping me;long story short=talked to the mother=after her children started helping me=then she started have problems with the city about paying taxes on her house, which she could not do; and within a two to three month period of time, she and her children had moved out of the neigborhood=because that takes control away from me in terms of having someone who would help me with doing pysical work, which means it makes me have to put out physically (also limits what I can get done=interms of progress vs African American who helps the white male system=who they allow African American children and males to help so that they can progress), which is stressful, thereby etc.=and if you factor in the fact that my earthly brothers were not in the city (and the fact that the two that were in the city were killed, then that leaves me doing all the pysical work)=which leads to (gurantee same scenerio(sp)is going on throughout the AFrican American community) me going throught he second phase of trying to beg my male relatives to come and help me cut the bushes/hedges at the house.
Have asked my earthly brother who is allowed to make money to please ask my nephews to come and cut the bushes/hedges; also asked my earthly sister=both just laugh=they tell me to tell them=when because of the mind control=nephews told who is who in the family=they just laugh=but now if I agreed to help the white male system=which means I agree to attack and abuse my family members, all the males in the family would be allowed to come and cut the hudges and the bushes; so guess I better request prayer that the African American males in my family will be allowed to come and help me do physcial work=NOw they are allowed to do anything that my eartly sister requests=?????because she will always tell them what the white male system tells her to tell them and being that she is the one with the stability, money, etc,. stupids will listen to her; therefore white males control the entire family=??????=and it is a slight problem if you have another voice saying God made the family to love each other, not abuse each other=which brings me to=being that I have been in the church since I was TWO years old=over four decades (family members know that)=almost on a daily basis=why I am tired of going to church=my earthly sister on the other hand has been in the church for maybe a total of one month if you add up all the day on a day by day basis=which presents another problem to the white male system=so how are they handling that=they are using her eartly boyfriend=one way=have him in church here recently for about two months=she goes every now and then with him=thus=plan is that she will become religious=therefore=other family members will again follow=because she will be serving God=but she will be serving the WHITE God, not the God that put Jesus Christ of Nazareth on the face of the earth=because even as one minister said=if you are really serving God and doing what he is telling you to do, you will not have to tell me=the words say that his blessing will be all over you=meaning money,etc..=which brings me to the whate male system must be God, because I have yet to see the financial blessing on me=now there are some pastors in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who do know that I have been serving the real God, who made Jesus Christ of Nazareth, but some of them like their money and there fore, sister let me pray for you, but I need to eat, and not sharing my money because I don't want to be attacked=which is OKAY because God showed me=like the minister who told me "TAKE CARE"=God showed me his fate will probably that of Larry Leon Hamlin=they have already prepared him and his social buddies psychologically=he was one of the ones when I went to him=that he said that I need help= he knew I was telling the truth, but wanted that money=????=so unless God does some serious movement in my life economically, my family members will follow my earthly siter who they are preparing to follow a false God=can't really fought them because my earhtly sister gets rewarded for helpin them, whereas I get punished for not helping them=it is always better to have food.
Personally I think I deserve and qualify for an EXTREME MAKEOVER, even if one of the criteria is: "To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency." Even if I DO NOT have an organize social service organization in my life I NEED an EXTREME MAKEOVER"=would prefer to have the money to do it myself; but always thankful,etc..
Peacenowst
So went on website www.abettercommunity.com in which they asked for volunteers=would rather be a volunteer=reality says ask for help=so I looked for qualifications to get help with a house and they are as follows:
"Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."
Remember when I wrote on my blog that they were trying to make me homeless=???even though I was part owner in a house, and my family was doing repairs to the house when I was out of it; as soon as I moved back in the house=they stopped doing repair work on the house; then I met the minister who I heard on the radio that gives away food, clothes, shoes, furniture, etc.=in which thank God he did give me some food to tide me over and he did give me work in the church office for a minute=in which I observed him continuously repairing furniture, giving food and clothes away, etc.. It was even promised after the minister saw the house, because he use to have a remodeling company, that he would help me to repair the house and then help me to put furniture in the house.
As I observed him giving furniture away to other people; I asked when he was going to help me=long story short=the answers were excuses not to help me=????even though I knew he was doing the best he could=he and his wife are good people with good hearts=because of gift I knew that they were dealing with the demons and were trying to hear from God=meaning that in order for him to my pastor=he has to know what demons I have overcome=in order to lead me=therefore, after I joined the church, he stayed in spiritual warfare; in which to tell someone what he has experienced, nobody would=correction=there are some people that do understand and know about some of the situations in which God showed me how to overcome.
Which still brings me back to this point; first my income and second the house with no furniture, etc.=as stated by the Exteme Makeover website=
” Most H omeAid housing serves people who are temporarily homeless due to circumstances beyond their control: job loss, natural disasters and other catastrophes, illness and medical problems, domestic violence, and more.“
My income=which has been at $2,000.00 per year on average=even with two degrees=can’t make people hire me or stop them from interfering with my trying to make an income on my own=”One lady said that she would get up every day and just pester them=told her that I had did that=applied with Wachovia for over thirteen years=to find out that they had hired an African American female to keep out other African Americans=heard it on the news or some people talking about it=remember saying to myself=well that’s why I got no return phone calls after thirteen years=in fact that is what they still have in the city of Winston-Salem, now they are using Hispanics as well as African Americans=who is going to stop them=in which the real problem comes when people realize what is going on and try to earn money on their on=but when they do they are punished and attacked if they try to earn their own income or if any of their family members try to help them=because for every person that is stopped from making their own money=somebody has to supply them with money from somewhere=if they just utterly refuse to go to any type of social service; then they are forced into other activities in which would be consider to be illegal; prostitution, drugs, etc.,or they have to be gay to earn their money or they are classified as mentally ill=meaning that for the most part in regards to my earning an adequate income, etc. the circumstances ARE beyond my control; not God’s but mine=I do not have the resources to combat an established century old system of blocking African Americans out of the economic mainstream for no other evident reason than that they love their own people.
For every time a family member helps another family member that means that the
organized organizations lose money because they don't get to make the millions of dollars off of an individual= for example, my earthly father was in prison for thirty five years=which means that for thrity five years somebody was paid to cloth and feed him and if we went to visit him, it was not good; not to mention the other two to three years of his life while he was on the outside; then they made money on him through experimentation,etc=all the way up to the end of his physical life in which the people at hospice were making money off of him=Why they have tried to put me on a path to ill health=handicapped,etc.=they want to make money off of me=So based upon extreme makeovers website=I do qualify and being that the computer lab is getting ready to close, I will continue, Lord willing tommorrow,
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7/30/07
Change of mind=came to the public library on 5th street=as I was writing=the other part is that to verify my statement about the fact that organized organizations stand in line first to make money off of who try to deal with things beyond their control, the Extreme Makeover website aslo states="
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency."=meaning that inorder to qualify, social services=an organized organizations has to refer you=and in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina, if you do not have a JOB=they don't give a person help=therefore they do not qualify for other assistance=which if a person thinks about it, is backwards, not unless they really think about it=in which is makes a lot of sense; especially if you want to block certain individuals from receiving any type of help=which means they will have no other choice than to participate in illegal activities=???????To give examples=my nephew (whose mother is helping them) took a day off from work=becuase his employers(temporary agency) were trying to make him work 12 hours a day for seven days a week=until he goes back to college=I have been trying for over thirty plus years to work overtime in this city=has not happen=when I heard where they are making overtime= and applied=if I was lucky to get on and start working=they ALWAYS STOP the overtime=NOT COINCIDENTIAL=????which means that SOMEBODY???????????
The fact that "a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency" really presents a problem, because in the city of Winston=-Salem, North Carolina, most of the people including myself=have recieved help from the organized organizations but it has not helped the person to move beyond their temporary situation or transform their lives;but the opposite, kept them in the same situation or made things worse. Or maybe I should say it's like the medicine they give people now; on the one hand the head ache may be cured; but on the other hand the medicine gave them high blood pressure as a side effect of the medicine. For example, the food stamps helped them stay alive; but because they recieved the food stamps their name goes on a list that is passed from organization to organization, so that each organization can make money off of them; therefore, their employment,etc. opportunities are almost null and void because they become meat to the vultures. For the people who recieve the services to actually transform their lives, it means that the organized organization wouldn't have any clients/customers=as I was using their services, I use to say, something isn't right=???then finally I figured it out=10% of African Americans who go through their system and pass their what I call (in house nigger test=meaning they would sell their own people out)=either through mind control=being forced=???? (my earthly sister) or their own decision to be=????they=???allow that ten % to get jobs and get off of their organized organizations system=everybody else is left to figure out how to survive being passed back and forth between their organized organization system=for those who don't figure it out=they end up with some type of handicap, illness; therefore, off to the doctors they go (where they use them to make more money) and all the time the person is thinking=something is not quite right=why am I going through this=for those who do figure out part of it=they manage to get through hungry spells, no water, lights, food, etc. and some through a miracle, such as the African Americans on the Extreme Makeover television show in which they got a new house with their dream rooms.
Which brings me to this point; guess I (sent my name to the Extreme Makeover show and their response was that someone would look at my question and get back to me= that I can at least if I get seleceted I will look, like I'm moving forward in life, but then again don't know because I am not and have worked overtime not to be connected to one of the social agencie and one of Extreme Makeovers criteeria is
"To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a CHARITY must provide SOCIAL SERVICES that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency.
Please don't think that I think that I am too good; have been there did that=the key word in all of the statement above by Extreme Makeover is "enable families and indiviuals to move beyond their temporary situation"; the social agencies that I have encountered do not enable a family or person to move beyond their temporary situation; they enable them to stay in their temporary situation or to move to the next temporary situation.Go to any true African American community in which they are an American born citizen (except Katrina survivors)and ask them how long they have been living in their apartment/house, community; or even better ask them how long they have been on the temporary social service program,most of them will give the response that they have been off and on the local social service programs=why?????=because the local social service programs(and probably in other locations)are intended to KEEP the person from coming out of their temporary situation=because if the person came out of their temporary situation, two things would occur:first the people at the social service agency would NOT have a job; and second they would become in the social service,etc. mind=competitors=????
At the present moment, do not know how I will eat; don't want food stamps=need
foodstamps but know that if I(maybe not somebody else, but if I go and get them=THEY=???will put me on the list to continously stay on food stamps by not allowing me to make but a certain amount of income; For example, applied to work as a server=was put in the dish room=female by the name of Lisa (Caucasion(sp)) started about a two weeks after I started=she trained for two to three days and was on the floor making money=asked her how were her tips, etc.. she said with the 3.15 an hour and tips, she was making at least $200.00 a week=800.00 month, whereas they put me in the dish room making 6.50 an hour, but this week end only worked about 10 to twelve hours=65.00 week=if lucky=average every two weeks has been 89.00=176.00 month=when I have asked why can't I be a server; never given an answer; just passed from one person to the next; Now a lot of the teenagers at the restruarant, talk about Lisa; that she is slow, etc. and how she drives them up a wall, especially with her whining;and they can't figure out why she is working over some of the other more personable(sp) and better servers=answer=Lisa was the name of the person who was the manager at the local factory that I worked at that allowed hispanics to commit psychological torture on me for over two years; Lisa represents or is symbolic for that spirit(organizations,etc.) gaining victory of their illegal activity in my life=meaning that before they can do something in the natural realm, first they have to do it in the spirit realm=If they intend to steal/block avenues for me to compensated or intend to take money from me so that they make more money,etc.=then first they have to do it in the spirt realm=why LISA was hired after I was, put on the floor as a server and they put me in the dish room; as a server (suppose to be more prestegious) in a restruarant vs working in a dish room)=to them it means that if they do it in the spirit realm; they can do it in the natural realm=guess they can if=????except=?????
When growing up in middle school; started a business because there was very little money becaue my earthly father was in prison, so God gve me the idea to start selling popcorn and candy apples=every night I would make candy applesa nd pop popcorn, bag them and take them to school, the first time I went to school, remember, that I was a little nervous, for a lot of reasons; to make a long story short, the first day, I sold everything, I was happy; tried it the next day and I was even happier= my classmates started putting in orders so that the candy apples and popcorn were sold before I got to school the next day. I continued to sell candy apples and popcorn for a long time=to the point that my earthly mother=who I had asked to keep my money=was taking it and using it to feed, cloth and pay bills, but I didn't know it; but I was keeping up with how much I should have=so when I asked her for my money because I wanted to buy something; she informed me that she didn't have the money; that she had spent the money for food, and to pay bills. AT first the situation was a little strained, but knowing the situation, I understood, but think that may have been the reason that I stopped; POint is that on the news heard of a little girl who had a lemonade stand and had raised over $2000.00 over the summer at her lemonade stand=she was in the news because everybody was so pround of her, etc.=thought to myself and people think that someone who graduated with honors, don't have sense enough to come up with a legal product and sell it; even if it is lemonade, candy apples or popcorn.
The problem, for those of you who have no clue=is that first the little girl that was on the news=was (Caucasion) (sp);second think I have said this numerous times on various blogs=African Americans are not allowed to earn income/money=UNLESS=they have agreed to work for Caucasion males(sp)= or they are considered competitor=most African Americans born in the United States do not have a clue. For example, over the weekend, there was a story about a reporter by the name of Brown who was doing a story on a bakery. The story on CNN said that he was shot because somebody did not like the story he was doing. My condolences (sp) to the family. What people really should have paid attention to was the fact that they said on CNN, that the person who was in charge of the bakery at the time whose primary goal was to create JOBS for the African American youth, had been put in jail. Guarantee that the person in charge of the bakery(black male) did not have any idea that he was committing any type of crime by trying to create JOBS for the African American youth=at the url address for CNN, http://www.detnews.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?AID=/20070805/METRO/708050340
Jason Dearen / Associated Press/CNN wrote=" The Bakery's founder, Dr. Yusuf Bey, who opened his doors nearly 40 years ago hoping to inspire Oakland's poor to become "respectable and productive individuals." and "Pledging to empower the city's black community, Bey began selling bean and carrot pies"= Point is that there was a desire to provide economic development in the African American community=result=the African American male was put in confinement=????have not followed the complete story; only the fact that the person in charge of the bakery was trying to produce JOBS for African American youth and he ended up in confinement=(gift working)=along with the fact that the main issue in my life has been=being blocked out of a job=if a person has been blocked out of a job for over thirty years; they KNOW when others are being kept out of jobs as well as the fronts,etc. =Point=African Americans do not have the options to start a LEGAL lemonade stand in their community=let alone African American males,etc. UNLESS they want to be like the black male who ended up being put in confinement=??????
Since working in the dish room, what I have found out it that there are a lot of African American females in the dish room=use to be African American males=????=Back to LISA=as I was saying LISA was the name of the African American female supervisor that ignored what the hispanics were doing to me (one of the few times that I have been allowed to work over two years)=how LISA kept her job (paid to ignore what the hispanics were doing to me)=in fact that was her job=to act as cover for their illegal activity when they did something to another African American=so a lot of times when one sees two African Americans at odds with each other; one is usually getting paid to cover for usually Caucasion (sp) male system.
Still talking about social services=there was a story entitled "Where is Molly?" on CNN. The story was about a Caucasion male who had a sister that he use to play with when he was a child; but for somereason she was taken from him and when he question his mother or father about his sister, "Molly" he was told that he could not see her and punished when he questioned them; so he never mention his sister again until his mother and father passed; then he started searching for her. He finanlly found her through a file his father had kept and he located her social security number, which lead him to a state hospital for retarded people=which they had closed because of the ill treatment of the people that stayed there. Long story short the man found his sister located in a group home, doing good. From there he became her legal gurardian, and looked forward to taking care of his sister= which really makes me happy for Molly and sad for me=because on the flip side=my brother and sister who were the mentally and socially challenged ones in the family are the ones who have been allowed to progress in life=lead/make money=while on the other hand, myself being classified as a genius have been abused, denied opportunity, etc.punished because I can think=problem=I was thinking like a FREE person; thinking everybody was born equal at least by law if nothing else=wrong; which means that while "Molly" is searched for to be helped, my family members because they are told what to think=are trying to clssify me as koo koo; my sister goes out of her way to help hispanics=(called a local school to complain about the treatment of a hispanic female that she didn't know=but was TOLD to do so=through their silent communication sytem (I call it mind control)but not once=KNOWING what they are doing to me=have spoken to one person, have not once went to one of the thousands of dam situations and confronted them for what they are doing to me=???? (excuse me she did once=went with me over to Winston-Salem State University=and was probably told not to do it again=because she didn't=not to mention that my earthly brother=the one that everone said was slow=whose made the most money in the family=with nothing to show for it=is the one that they have allowed to be around me=???? no ones knows how insulting it is to have a dam stupid ass look at you like he knows something when you know his thinking is ass backwards=excuse when you know that he's operating under mind control=that is scary=if they don't tell them to think it=they don't know what to think=????=IN other words="Molly" white female=retarded=allowed to be connected with her family or I should say her brother=also on the news program they said that their parents were told that they should not keep a retarded child at home whereas myself being a genius, seeking steady work for over three decades, harassed daily, etc.=punished for being an African American or being an competitor(??????) have been treated as if retarded (know that it is not normal to go through all the shit I have gone through without going off=like I said thought that I was born free and the systems in this country would work=)=do know that if a person is constantly tormented and abused, they will become retarded or worse=because it demeans a person takes away their humanistic nature(makes them a thing)=as someone says, it makes the person numb after they have gone through so much, so it becomes difficult for them to react like a normal person=BUT/NAD I have a feeling that a lot of African Americans who should be classified as genius are being turned into retarded ass ?????=all with their families help because in the United States of America African American families are not allowed to help/care for each other,. because then that would mean that social service does not get to make money off of them.
Now someone and God keeps telling me/and I keep asking about=proof that African Americans are punished if they try to help their own race=GOD said, "Tell them this"=If anyone who reads this (hopefully before it is too late=figured out that they read my blog; then make corrections so it looks as if I don't know what I am talking about) would go to any parking lot that they can see from a two story or higher=makesure that the parking lot is empty=look down at the parking lot and what you will see=because everything that is done in the dark, shall come to light=is a parking lot that looks like domino's=and I say domino's because where there should be clean parking spaces, the parking spaces have a lot of black spots=why does the parking lot have a lot of black spots=because all of the cars have leaks=why do all the cars have leaks=because the cars are made in the factory to have the oil leaks, which lead to other problems related to lack of oil/oil leaks in a car=Everytime a car gets leak that means that the oil company where the motor oil is made=gets money, the machanic who does the repair gets money, the people who make the parts for problems related to oil leaks in cars gets money,etcc., people in the automobil industry probably know who else get paid=And you can go to ANY city and find that there are parking lots in which the parkings spaces all have MAJOR oil stains where cars have parked and the oil has leaked out=as much money that they spend on research, etc. and they can't stop an oil leak=???in fact as I think about it=oil companies that product motor oil for cars would be a good investment=??????God said EVRYTHING that they have or will do in terms will come to light=meaning that the situation with the cars is evident=and if you shuld happen to see a all of a SUDDEN increase in the people/companies that wash parking lots=you know they have read this blog.
To myself, talking about the oil spots on parking lots, is proof that something major is going on with cars having oil leaks, in terms of it being proof that African Americans are punished for helping their family members=????=but if God said write it=then somehow it will lead to the proof=And while I am thinking about it, one of the ways, is to go to any African American born females house in which they have not agreed to punish their relatives and you will find that they are not allowed to have their male family members help them in or around their house. For example, being that my income levels dictates that my meals are once a day, if lucky; my energy level does not allow me to genreate the energy necessary to cut the hedges and bushes in the yard=which I use to do=because when I tried to get some of the young African American males and females (children) about fifteen years ago to help me in the yard; after they helped me for about a month=they were moved=mother and children=they were struggling real bad, and I was trying to help them as much as possible, while they were helping me;long story short=talked to the mother=after her children started helping me=then she started have problems with the city about paying taxes on her house, which she could not do; and within a two to three month period of time, she and her children had moved out of the neigborhood=because that takes control away from me in terms of having someone who would help me with doing pysical work, which means it makes me have to put out physically (also limits what I can get done=interms of progress vs African American who helps the white male system=who they allow African American children and males to help so that they can progress), which is stressful, thereby etc.=and if you factor in the fact that my earthly brothers were not in the city (and the fact that the two that were in the city were killed, then that leaves me doing all the pysical work)=which leads to (gurantee same scenerio(sp)is going on throughout the AFrican American community) me going throught he second phase of trying to beg my male relatives to come and help me cut the bushes/hedges at the house.
Have asked my earthly brother who is allowed to make money to please ask my nephews to come and cut the bushes/hedges; also asked my earthly sister=both just laugh=they tell me to tell them=when because of the mind control=nephews told who is who in the family=they just laugh=but now if I agreed to help the white male system=which means I agree to attack and abuse my family members, all the males in the family would be allowed to come and cut the hudges and the bushes; so guess I better request prayer that the African American males in my family will be allowed to come and help me do physcial work=NOw they are allowed to do anything that my eartly sister requests=?????because she will always tell them what the white male system tells her to tell them and being that she is the one with the stability, money, etc,. stupids will listen to her; therefore white males control the entire family=??????=and it is a slight problem if you have another voice saying God made the family to love each other, not abuse each other=which brings me to=being that I have been in the church since I was TWO years old=over four decades (family members know that)=almost on a daily basis=why I am tired of going to church=my earthly sister on the other hand has been in the church for maybe a total of one month if you add up all the day on a day by day basis=which presents another problem to the white male system=so how are they handling that=they are using her eartly boyfriend=one way=have him in church here recently for about two months=she goes every now and then with him=thus=plan is that she will become religious=therefore=other family members will again follow=because she will be serving God=but she will be serving the WHITE God, not the God that put Jesus Christ of Nazareth on the face of the earth=because even as one minister said=if you are really serving God and doing what he is telling you to do, you will not have to tell me=the words say that his blessing will be all over you=meaning money,etc..=which brings me to the whate male system must be God, because I have yet to see the financial blessing on me=now there are some pastors in the city of Winston-Salem, North Carolina who do know that I have been serving the real God, who made Jesus Christ of Nazareth, but some of them like their money and there fore, sister let me pray for you, but I need to eat, and not sharing my money because I don't want to be attacked=which is OKAY because God showed me=like the minister who told me "TAKE CARE"=God showed me his fate will probably that of Larry Leon Hamlin=they have already prepared him and his social buddies psychologically=he was one of the ones when I went to him=that he said that I need help= he knew I was telling the truth, but wanted that money=????=so unless God does some serious movement in my life economically, my family members will follow my earthly siter who they are preparing to follow a false God=can't really fought them because my earhtly sister gets rewarded for helpin them, whereas I get punished for not helping them=it is always better to have food.
Personally I think I deserve and qualify for an EXTREME MAKEOVER, even if one of the criteria is: "To be eligible for HomeAid housing, a charity must provide social services that enable families and individuals to move beyond their temporary situation, transform their lives, restore their self-worth, and regain self-sufficiency." Even if I DO NOT have an organize social service organization in my life I NEED an EXTREME MAKEOVER"=would prefer to have the money to do it myself; but always thankful,etc..
Peacenowst
